Diary ni Ashlee

Entry # 3. Another heartache

I woke up the next morning feeling so sore. Hindi naman ako nagtaka kung bakit ganoon ang pakiramdam ko. I clearly remember everything that happened last night. I opened my eyes and I automatically turned around just to be disappointed. Reed's not in bed anymore. I sat up. Kung gaano kabilis ang lahat nang nangyari kagabi, ganoon rin siya kabilis nawala. Para siyang bula. I sighed. This is so him, ganito rin ang ginawa niya sa akin three years ago. He abandoned me inside that cottage after an amazing – in my part it was – night we shared. I woke up alone in bed, with him gone – literally gone. I didn't know where he went or anything, I just found out – Tonie told me – Reed went out of the country and decided to stop his career – as an actor – and go to New York.

He freakin' went to New York and I never heard from him again. Considering the fact that I surrendered my v-card to him, he didn't call after. What an asshole!

And now, he did it again. Feeling yata niya, si Britney Spears siya.

I stood up and wrapped the blanket around my body. I didn't even bother dressing up. Nasa bahay naman ako, wala akong kasama so I can walk around naked and no one will even give a damn about it.

I got out of my room and I went straight to my kitchen. I made myself some coffee. I opened one of my cupboards and took a jar of nuttela. I sat on the kitchen counter holding a spoon and the nuttela on my hand, I took a spoonful on my mouth and just like that, I felt heavenly.

I was silently wondering where Reed is right now, I'm sure he didn't go back to New York. It would be such a waste of time – in his part – to board a plane back here in the Philippines just to have sex with me tapos ay aalis na ulit siya. Hindi naman ako ganoon kaimportante.

Maybe he went home...

Yeah, maybe he went home to his apartment and rested for a while, but then, why would he be here? I noticed last night na parang kararating niya lang. Dala pa niya ang luggage niya tapos ay nakasuot pa ito ng coat.

Ako ba ang una niyang pinuntahan?

Natawa naman ako sa naisip ko. Why would Reed come to me first? Except for the amazing sex I had with him – twice – last night and three years ago – wala naman kaming ibang ugnayan.

"He's still an asshole." I whispered before sipping on my coffee. I went down the counter and walked towards the refrigerator. I wanted to eat something cold, so I looked inside the ref for some ice cream pero na-disappoint ako when I found out that there's no ice cream in there.

"I hate my life." I said. I took the nutella jar again and ate another spoonful I was facing the kitchen sink, my back was against the kitchen entrance and I was really busy eating my sweet nutella so I didn't notice anyone in there plus, I really thought Reed left so really didn't mind, but when I felt a pair of hands against my waist, I jumped out, surprised, I had a mini heart attack. Agad akong humarap only to find the still naked Reed in front of me.

"Why are you still here!" I shouted at him.

"Do you want me to leave?" He asked. Bigla siyang tumawa. "Haha! Puro ka kiss mark saka kagat." 

I rolled my eyes. I pushed him away.

"I wondered who did this..." I said a bit sarcastic.

I gasped when he suddenly bent down, placed his head on my neck and then bit my skin. I know I was supposed to be hurt but what he did only sent down shivers down my spine. He then, pulled me closer. I could feel his arousal against my belly.

"Hmnn... I think I have a problem, Ashlee." He grinned. "Can you feel my problem?"

"You are so malandi..." I giggled. I was actually amazed by the way I act around him right now. Why am I acting like I have been doing this with him for a long time? We haven't seen each other for long time and yet we act as if we've been around that long.