I Can Do Both *REUPLOAD*

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After the two found solitude in each other's warmth, Felix offered to assist Jisung in search of the missing guitar, finally succeeding once they uncovered the ominous back right corner of the closet. They then bounded down the stairs together and into the studio room, both with small smiles on their faces.

"Well, hello sunshines," Bangchan chuckled, giving the two a warm smile, which caused Jisung's cheeks to heat up immensely. Chan was always nice and it freaked him out.

Jisung took his seat next to Minho on the piano bench while Chan walked a tight circle in the middle of the room, chewing the end of his pen as he stared intensely at the checklist he had made.

"So, I was thinking that I could probably work on the arrangement of the songs? I'm assuming we'll want to start with one but I'll still need help with that, especially if we want to do more than one. I say someone should also be in charge of lyrics? Jisung, I actually think you'd suit that really well because—man, I've peeked at some of your lyrics here and, well, to be quite frank, they're amazing."

"O—Oh, thank you," Jisung blushed, not used to the sudden compliments.

"So what concept are we going for? I say we do something that's more personal to us instead of some sort of joke song. Any suggestions, comments, concerns?"

"Damn, bro was born a leader," Changbin muttered, resulting in an echo of laughter across the room.

Jisung glanced at Felix, who was looking at him expectantly, before clearing his throat and wetting his lips.
"We...could do a song about growing up and the pressure we face about conforming to society instead of being ourselves...?" he suggested nervously.

"Hah, maybe ourselves but not when you're a living nightmare," Hyunjin scoffed, receiving a harsh slap from Felix.

"Shut the fuck up, actually," he spat.

Hyunjin's eyes widened and he immediately slumped against the wall, playing with his fingers and pouting in shame.

"I actually think that's a great idea," Jeongin, who had remained silent for the majority of the time, commented. The rest of the room seemed to agree and Chan scribbled notes on his clipboard, nodding his head in satisfaction.

"This sounds great guys! I think we could dive even deeper into that and maybe tell the story of finding yourself in the midst of all of it? Like, telling the story of someone finding theirself and breaking free. Maybe after a "relationship", being platonic or romantic, or even an experience?" Chan suggested, tilting his head in thought.

Hums of agreement sounded in the room and Chan scribbled some more before speaking up again.

"I think I can take this concept and put something together. I'd love if Changbin and Jisung could help with composition and lyrics?"

Jisung gulped when Changbin shot a judging glance towards him. It seemed very clear he wasn't exactly ecstatic about working with Jisung. But Jisung was also quite surprised when Changbin nodded at Chan from his spot on the floor and said "Sounds great. Let's meet back here tomorrow after school."

And just like that, a plan was set in place. The others were instructed to focus on vocal excersizes and immerse themselves into the storyline while Jisung had the pressuring task of writing soul-pulling lyrics. He was stuck between two very muscular guys who could easily give him a good swirly if they felt like it.

He could not mess this up.

Which brought him to the hard part.

Lyrics.

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Felix wasn't sure what changed. Or what the catalyst of that change was.

How come, one minute he was toying with the lustrous and comedically awkward Hyunjin, and the next he was anxiously rocking on his heels, poking his head above the crowd of students, searching for the same man?

How come his once stubborn heart now felt so incredibly warm and full? How come he found his usually confident words tripping over themselves?

How come he was suddenly a blushing and stuttering mess?

In addition, there were certain comments the older would make that would send Felix into a state of pure fluster that would last anywhere from a mere minute to a surprising couple hours.

"Your hair looks good today."

Gone.

"I love your outfit!"

Gone.

"Is that my hoodie? You look so small and adorable in it."

Destroyed.

What the fuck was happening? He wasn't sure when or why or how this happened, but something clearly ignited a flame in his chilly heart.

To put it plainly, Felix was confused.

"Do...Do you—would you like to go on a date with me some time?" the very boy who recently had been consuming his every thought interrupted those same thoughts, snapping Felix out of his daydream.

"Yes?" He was unsure of why he emphasized the end like one would do when asking a question. He didn't know if it was because he was unsure, cautious, obvious, or oblivious, but whatever reason, it made Hyunjin furrow his eyebrows and stick out his bottom lip. He stayed silent for a moment as he played with the edges of his phonecase before clearing his throat and asking "are you sure?"

Am I sure?

Felix was unsure about a lot of things. He was unsure what Hyunjin was doing to make him so giddy, he was unsure of what caused him to pursue Hyunjin in the first place...he was unsure what this feeling was that made him more sure than he had been about anything else.

Yes.

"Yes!" Felix breathed, letting out the air he had briefly encapsulated in his throat while he pondered the situation.

He pressed his nails into his palms, something he did anxious habit, and nibbled his bottom lip.

"Yes, I want to. I would love to."

"Oh, okay. Yay then," Hyunjin sighed in relief, smiling shyly. Then, within the same moment, his smile dropped and he looked down in slight shame.

"I didn't plan this far ahead..."

Felix giggled and reached for the other's hand, pulling it between his own.

"That's okay. That just leaves room for more possibilities. We could go to the park or watch a movie at your house or go out to eat or go to the Spring Festival!"

"Spring Festival?"

"Yeah, it's all of next week to celebrate the start of spring! It's a little late this year but it's lots of fun, I promise. There are so many activities like Easter egg decorating, basket weaving, bracelet making, face painting, flower planting, and so much more—oh my Lord we have to go. What do you think?"

Hyunjin's smile reappeared, this time a little wider.

That beautiful smile.

"Yeah, that sounds amazing! When is it?"

Holy fucking shit, I think I'm in love.

Word count: 1136

what is upppppppppp. been a HOTTT minute. mb guys my phone broke on me but I got a new one now 😼😼😼 locking in for 2025 trust.
we're gonna be starting to delve into the complexity of Felix if yall can't telllll. there's gonna be a bit of focus on the hyunlix but I rlly want to dive deep into Felix's character in this story bc it's quite important...
sorry if this is bad 😭😭 I haven't written in 50 thousand years it seems
I missed yallll 🥺😖

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