Sticky Notes

18 - Letters from Alice

Tanya's P.O.V

I and the rest of the people in my friendship group including Dylan sat round the fire sitting on beanbags and chatting. Today was supposed to be the first day back at school but today and tomorrow is snow day due to the storms and bad weather. I was sat on Dylan's knee talking to Daniel and Whitney about Alice.

Today was supposed to be the date of her funeral but it was cancelled and Daniel was simply a mess. He had only just started showering, studying, eating and talking to us and it had been a week, but he was getting better which is an improvement I guess.

"Guys, is that just the rain or is that someone knocking on the door?" Aaron asked and everyone in the room nodded when he mentioned knocking on the door.

"I'll go get it!" I told them getting up and heading to the door to open it to a Mrs Heights Alice's mother.

"Mrs Heights, what are you doing here? I am so sorry about your daughter and everything that has happened!" I told her, sympathized with a pale looking Mrs Heights awkwardly, not really knowing what to do or what to say.

"I c-came to drop these off, they are from A-Alice and the hospital said it was letters she wrote before the operation!" Mrs Heights told me in a quiet and sad tone.

"Oh, t-thanks!" I stuttered taking the letters from Mrs Height's hand, which simply smiled and walked away, probably crying because of the sniffling sounds I could hear, so I closed the door and walked in to the living room trying not to cry myself.

I handed the letters out silently and watched people's faces scrunch up trying not to cry, and Daniel's face was the worst of us all.

Dear Daniel,

I am so sorry for everything I put you through, I never meant to use you but what we had at the start of our relationship was real I promise. But then the lies started and I didn't want to break up with you because you still meant the world to me. I thought I liked Dylan but I realized I didn't after the drug mistake and realized he wouldn't be mine anyway and realized how stupid I was. That was when I broke up with you even though it was you I liked the whole time not Dylan. And you have no idea how grateful I am you were in my life. This letter can't be long because if I continue it will be an essay but I love you and I regret ever leaving!

Dear Tanya and Dylan,

I wish you the best I really do. I am so sorry to both of you because of what I put you through emotionally and physically and I only just realized how stupid I am. What I did was dreadful and terrible and I can't put in words how annoyed I am at myself and my actions. Tanya your my best friend and always will be and I just want you to remember that and Dylan look after Tanya and please forgive me for being a bitch. I have to go now but I am eternally sorry and I will always remember you both.

Dear Noah, Lizzie, Aaron and Whitney,

I know I wasn't the greatest friend because back two years ago I was like the Regina George of high school but I am sorry for everything I did. And I just want you to all know I used to hate you all and bully you because of jealousy. I wanted to be you. You had the perfect clothes and families and didn't have to put in effort to make friends. And bullying you was my biggest mistake and although you forgave me I could never forgive myself. But I hope you find it in you to honestly forgive me. Good luck in your futures.

A/N

This is my first ever book written and it may be awful but I'm so glad I started writing books, it helps let out emotions you know you never had built up inside! I guess that's why I write. {Edited}