you know all the negative things you say to a person hurts even though its a joke? :)
We may laugh it off, but we think about it later on :)
it hurts :)
it hurts:)
every negative thing i think about, every thing appointed to me:)
how ugly i am:)
how useless:)
i an worthless:)
how annoying:)
how fat i am:)
I need to go on a diet:)
i need plastic surgery:)
i need to wear more makeup:)
i need to wear less:)
My clothes don't match:)
my hair is a mess:)
i look stupid:)
my physical appearance is bothersome:)
i can only wear that if I'm skinny:)
i can't do anything right:)
i always make mistakes:)
im stupid:)
i eat too much:)
i eat too little:)
im a waste of space:)
i shouldn't marry:)
people feel bad for whoever is going to marry me:)
im not respected:)
you don't value our friendship as much as you value your other ones:)
im a bitch:)
im a slut for having a lot of guy friends:)
im a whore because i supposedly like and fuck all of them:)
Im too social:)
i don't talk that much:)
i know nothing:)
i try to stay strong:)
i act tuff:)
but there will be a breaking point:)
I'm always happy:)
but I'm not:)
when i try to show my feelings its a 'phase':)
i don't know how i stayed this long:)
I've been used:)
I'm always there for everyone:)
but is there anyone there for me?:)
it doesn't feel like it:)
you talk to me because no one else listens:)
you tell me your problems because I'm the only one that actually listens:)
I'm left behind:)
no one knows whats behind this happiness:)
locked in my heart:)
locked in my head:)
you're lucky:)
you don't have to feel and go through what i do:)
I've thought about it before:)
I've cut before:)
i almost wanted to do it :)
i almost did:)
but something in me stupid myself:)
i thought that maybe just maybe you would come around:)
but I'm a waste of your time:)
because its a phase:)
im stupid because i don't know what to do with my life:)
all these things that everyone spent on me is going to go to waste:)
because i waste peoples money:)
but its okay:)
I've made a use of some of it:)
at least it won't all go to waste:)
its okay:)
I'm going to be gone soon:)
i hope you enjoyed life:)
ill be okay:)
im gonna be up there now:)
don't forget about me okay?:)
ill remember you:)
and everyone else who's been there:)
to some of the people that actually listened to me when you could:)
i wish i could've given you that time back:)
but I'm sorry i wasted it:)
i don't need to tell another worthless story of my life to anyone else:)
i love you all:)
no matter what horrible things you said about me:)
its okay:)
I've forgiven you:)
just remember me as the one that listened to you:)
remember me as the one that you 'cared' about:)
I'm sorry to leave so suddenly:)
dont cry:)
im alright:)
i can be happy now:)
im problem free now:)
my little soul can finally be free:)
it looks so dark though...:(
i remember when it used to be so light:)
those were good times:)
but its okay:)
hopefully in my next life time it can be light again:)
i don't have to live up to social standards anymore!:)
aren't you happy for me?!:)
i can finally fly:)
fly back home:)
Well it was nice talking to you one last time:)
i hope you're happy:)
goodbye:)
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Suicidal Teenage Dream(Trilogy)
FanfictionWhat is going to be of Faiths life? Is she going to be confident and stand up to them? or is she going to shy down and her life is going to crash down even further? will it be the same as the dream?(Super Slow Updates)