Forever and Always

Maya

It's been two weeks since I've been at Stanford, during that time I've mostly drawn in my notebook. Now, it's the first day of school and I am really nervous. I wake up at 5:30 and get ready for the day. School starts at 7:45, but I couldn't sleep I was so anxious. 

I get dressed in a light pink top with white pants and brown ankle boots. I do my hair in loose curls and tie the front pieces back. I keep my makeup subtle, but pretty. After spritzing on some perfume, I accessorize.

Finally ready I head out the door, stopping at a nearby cafe for some breakfast. Finished with that, I go up to the college. It's so big that I get lost, and arrive at my English class and sit down at the only available seat right as the bell rings. It's an oddly set up classroom from what I saw rushing in. There are dresses on both sides of the room, facing each other. As though we were going to have a debate.

"Okay class, get out your binders!" Announces the teacher. Since I just barely sat down, I don't have any time to look up, so I quickly pull out my supplies and place them on my desk.

 Looking up, the first thing that I see are these deep green eyes staring into mine. Ones that I feel like I know. Ones that make the rest of the room fade away. Ones that make my heart stop and time stands still. 

 Then I see the rest of the face behind the eyes. Tan skin, a dazzling white smile, neat light brown hair, a square jaw and a clear complexion. After his face, I see the rest of him. His shirt tight around his hard muscles. A white shirt that clings to his muscles in a very attractive way. The kind that makes me want to swoon. 

I barely hear the bell ring at the end of the class as i stumble put of the classroom. I find myself wandering outside, until I eventually end up at the same tree I was at when I first arrived. If I were given a pop quiz on what the teacher talked about in class, I would surely fail. My mind was focused on the mysterious boy across from me. It felt like I was suddenly magnetized. There were two magnets between us, pulling us together. At least that's what I thought, I don't know if he even feels the same way.

 I haven't ever felt this way before. Except one. That instant love, like you know you know them some how, and you need to know them more than you already do. Yet you feel as though you've known them for a thousand years and somehow you just met. There has only been one other time that I have felt that way. 

His name still brings me nightmares of him leaving. When you love someone so strongly, then they leave and your whole world changes. That's how it was with Lucas. I knew when I met him th at my life would never be the same. I knew he was a change that would last. I knew I should have stayed away from him. I knew in the end I would get hurt....yet I knew I couldn't stay away. 

It's like I could breathe for the first time. Then when Lucas left I was drowning in the sea again. But now I can breathe. But how much am I willing to loose for how much I might gain. I don't want to get hurt again. Fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me. So is that what's happening? Is this another heartbreak waiting to happen?

 My head is spinning a million miles an hour, and I can barely think. Can I trust this boy who I just met? Could a broken heart heal again? Could this be the death of me or a miracle hiding in the future?