~Adrenaline Rush~

Chapter: 22 'Rush-Cycle'

Jacobs POV~
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The next morning I woke up with the sun, sitting in the chair next to Adrenalines hospital bed, where she was sleeping.

If been here all night, sitting in this painful chair, next to my beautiful Hunny Bunny. My mind had been racing all night, and unfortunately, it's back to that.

I couldn't stop thinking, I mean a lot has happened, so how could I? Like for instance, why the hell did Adrenalines father want her so bad, if when she actually tried to be with him, he was drunk off his ass and not to mention, abusive. I'm positive that Adrenalines hiding a lot, and I don't blame her. But I've seen the marks he's left on her. Ie seen the way she cried when he showed up.

But I can't help to think that as bad as Mr. Rush is, I'm much worse.

I felt myself shudder as the image of Adrenalines scarred arms made its way into my thoughts. And my so called 'friends' and I had caused that pain.

Knowing that I was the reason Adrenaline wants to harm herself, knowing that that's the only way she can escape her emotional pain, it was killing me. My bitch of a girlfriend has caused my lifetime crush to want to end it all. I can see it in Adrenalines eyes every time she looks at me, and it makes me feel so fucking awful. The things that Lindsey and our group of friends have said to her..

And then there was last night. Lindsey's horrible self was so drunk that she didn't even recognize Adrenaline. And her Drunkenness had caused her to admit something- Lindsey finds Adrenaline pretty. I totally agree, but the fact that Lindsey would put Adrenaline down even when she knew she was lying, it's horrible.

I sat in that chair for what seemed like only seconds, thinking.

Then, there was one more thing. I keep telling myself of imagined it, and maybe I did..

Who am I kidding? I didn't imagine that. Her dad was in the hospital. That's proof it happened. Adrenaline had so many built up emotions over the years towards her dad, and sadly my squad, mostly consisting of anger and sadness, that she had let it all out in white holt energy, as if it had come from Zues himself. A volt of pure, angry electricity that had put her damn dad in the hospital. And he deserved it, but so do I.

It turns out that what had felt like only a very quick thought process, was actually about 2 hours of my mind beating me up with thoughts and guilt, and it left me feeling even worse about myself.

It dawned on me that yesterday I had very much accidentally confessed that I like, no LOVE, Adrenaline Rush.
.....right in front of her. She was probably so upset, so mad, she probably figured I lied, to mess with her. I'm such a horrible person.

My thoughts were interrupted by a groan. When I looked up, a returned the favor along with a scoff.

Lindsey.