Dear ______
This is another day writing in this diary a lot of pain happened today my friends they smile and be happy but I feel like I'm a bother to them like they don't want me in there group like they would be better off without me.
I feel like they need to be away from me I feel like they need a brake from me that's why I always thought of death but I didn't do it because I thought what would happen if I did go they would think it's there fault and I would feel even more horrible school wasn't fun ether I had a hard time math was so confusing this time I used to be really good at math but it started to go down when I got depression so science is now my thing.
When will I be able to feel free and happy I feel so trapped and just closed in and horrible I probably annoy my friends I must be they always sometimes leave me out and or call me copy cat or some other mean things that I laugh at but inside I'm crying and feeling hurt...I guess my feelings don't matter then I guess it means another 3 cuts to the wrist.
Good bye for now for I wish nobody reads this but me
Jordan
AKA:CaptianSparklez
This is just wonderful school was stressful good thing I have this to write in it helps a lot mostly when I want to scream and yell because I have random doodles in my diary or I call is a sketchbook/diary hey it's small and I have a lot of doodles mostly sad ones. I don't want to be sad in front of my friends so I draw in a little sketchbook that my mom gave me but there are lines so I write then draw in the back I sometimes draw how I felt that day.
I got a lot of homework today I need to man this sucks oh well it's life.
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SyndiSparklez:My Written Life
FanfictionA normal kinda average teenager named Jordan Maron living his life and suffering with a crush like a normal person but what if that crush is his best friend. Jordan suffers with crushes and life he decides to write in a *cough* diary *cough* journal...
