Jennifer Swan (Jasper)

5. Restless

I stand up from my bed and look at the clock. 2:07am.
I still can't sleep. Jenny you are going to sleep!!

4:36am
Please God help me fall asleep.
I'm going to cry

5:45am
I'm going to cry. Yep
Sleep now
1...2...3...4...5...6...7...8...9...10...11
This is not working at all
Omg please all I want to do is sleep

I stuff my face into my pillow. Tears fall down my face, and my face instantly becomes puffy and red. All I really want is to sleep. I close my eyes and feel myself drifting to sleep finally. It's happening people I'm finally falling asleep.

alarm goes off

"Noooo!!!!why!!!!!!" I start crying. I was finally falling asleep when my alarm had to ruin it
"Jenny, are you okay?" I hear Bella say in a panic voice while opening my door

"No"I say

"What happened?" She asks as she looks around the room

"Life" I say as I let out a sigh

"Okay " she says slowly before backing away and closing the door after leaving.

I get up from bed and go to the bathroom and look at myself. I look horrible. I have dark circles under my eyes, my cheeks are puffy, my eyes are red, and a small pout sits on my face. I go back to my room and get my outfit for the day. A white sweater, and black sweatpants that I'll pair up with my vans later. I take a shower and put my hair in a messy high ponytail. I brush my teeth and go back to my room.

I go downstairs and make myself a sandwich. I quickly finish my breakfast and lay my head on the table. I can feel myself drift off. I let out a content sigh not before being woken up by a voice.

"Jenny, wake up" I hear someone say

"What" I groaned throwing my hands on the air for effect

"Come on, we have to leave"
I open my eyes look up and see Bella looking at me.
"Why are you so tired ?" She asks

"I couldn't fall asleep" I say

"Ohh well I'm sorry but it's time for school"
I go back upstairs and get my bag and phone.

School
"We are here " I hear Bella say

I closed my eyes the whole ride from home to school. Trying to catch a little nap but the bumps on the road made the mission impossible.
"Ugh" I say opening my eyes.

I open the door and get out of the truck. I go to Bella and ask "how do I look?"

"Truth?" She ask
I nod

"You look tired. I think you should have just told Charlie that you felt sick."she says as she fixes my hood.
"I didn't even think of that." I mumbled angrily

If I ever had a chance with Jasper, is now completely gone. I look horrible today.

"Let's go to math" I say as I start walking

"U.S history" Bella says
"yeah...that" I smile sheepishly before walking another
I feel Bella tugged on my arm "you are going the wrong way" she laughs