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hi guys, sorry it's been a while, but i've been super busy with school. before you read this chapter you should know that i changed a few things at the end of chapter nine. i decided that shawn won't cut himself,  because he was kind of overreacting so you probably wanna go back and look. tysm ilygsm. 

i s a b e l l a

i sprinted up the stairs as fast as i could, are barged into shawn's room. i looked around but i didn't see him, i checked in his bathroom, his closet, and even under his bed, but i couldn't find him anywhere.

oh god

oh god

this can't be good

i was about to call him, but i noticed a small piece of paper on his desk. me being my curious self i stumbled over to the wooden desk and picked it up. in blue ink my name was scribbled at the top in shawn's messy handwriting. 

      

                    isabella,

                            i feel like i don't even know myself at this point. i don't know what parts of me are real, and what parts are fake. every person who has ever loved me has altered me in different, irreversible ways. all this time i just wanted to let you know that you are the most beautiful combination of atoms i've ever seen. for once, i want someone to be afraid to lose me. i'm always the one terrified of losing the people that i hold close, but i doubt anyone would ever fight to keep me in their life. you look in the mirror and see yourself, but really, it's not you at all. i mean, there's your eyes and your nose and your cute little smile, but that's not all there is to you. because you're not seeing the amount of lives you've touched with your presence. you're not seeing all the people you've made smile and laugh. you're not seeing how strong you are. in fact, all the battles you've overcome are completely invisible when you look in the mirror, hidden beneath your outside features. so, my darling, listen to me when i say this: you are not as simple as a reflection. you are complex, wonderful and something brilliant that a mirror simply doesn't have the capability to show. it's only showing one tree in a forest, one star in a galaxy, and one grain of sand at the beach. and you are so much more than that, please believe it. i'm so sorry i screwed up, but i'm not gonna hide my feelings. if you feel the same way please meet me at our spot i'll be there. -shawn 

there were a few tear stains on the paper, and by the end i was crying too. i can't believe he likes me back. i have to go to our spot.  i stuffed the paper in my pocket and headed straight out the door. i still can't believe it, he likes me back. just thinking it creates butterflies in my stomach. the walk to the cliff seemed as if it was taking forever. 

finally after what felt like forever i arrived, i could see shawn sitting with his head in his palms. i'm so nervous, what if this is all a prank? i can feel my anxiety level increasing. after a few more seconds shawn senses my presence, and lifts his head. almost immediately a huge grin appeared on his face. 

" you came. " he said, with a humongous grin on his face.

 " of course,  i wouldn't miss it for the world. " i smiled. i stared into his chocolate brown eyes, and he stared back at mine. then all of a sudden he leaned in and crashed his plump lips onto mine. our lips moved in sync, he cupped my cheeks with his hands and deepens the kiss. i know it's cheesy but t felt as if fireworks were exploding inside of me. when we're out of breath we pull apart and he rests his forehead on mine. once again we stared into each others eyes. 

" i love you izzy. " he spoke.

" i love you too. " 

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i hope you guys like it

idek if i should continue this book, should i?

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