I'm not going to ask you to heal my mother
because it's too late for her,
it'd require a miracle
and if that's in your plan, then fine
but dear god,
please help my brother
he'll take the news harder than I did
and I cried my eyes out and then some
I'm worried about him,
he only came to visit once
but it's not like I expected him to be like me
and hold her hand and be there
nearly every day
matt's a guy who wouldn't say goodbye
to his dead brother
he's also a guy who wouldn't say goodbye
to his dying, soon dead, mother
dear god,
if you're listening
take care of him and take care of me
take care of my mom, she'll soon be
with you and not with me
dear god,
forgive us for all we've done
and forgive us for what we're going to do
forgive us for playing god and dragging it out
when we should have left it all up to you
dear god,
thank you for my family
my new family, my wife and son
thank you for her especially
thank you for all she's done
I love her, god, I love her so much
I know she's in pain, and this is extra stress
please help them both, don't let me lose them, too
dear god,
my mother made me promise her something
she claimed it was her dying wish
she doesn't want me to follow her
she wants me to stay, I'm so so scared to stay
because I don't think I'm strong enough
and I'm not strong enough
not without you
dear god,
save me again
save me like you saved me from hell
but this time, save me from myself
I'm one of my greatest enemies
dear god,
help me
dear god,
help them, too
and god, don't give up on me
because I'm not giving up on you
