When will I see that incandescence in your eyes again?
The you I know was replaced by quiescence
Hollow inside , but you refuse to eat like a stubborn child
because your stomach hasn't been thin for a while
I know you have a golden heart
and tenderness
and an unloved mind
searching for closure
But can't you remember?
Can't you remember?
The way you used to be before
not just a skeleton
trying to hide its transparent bones
Stuck to the tubes
of artificial oxygen
But all the oxygen in the world
doesn't mean you want to breathe again
I understand it sucks to stay
but do you really desire to burn it all away?
I know you have a golden heart
and tenderness
And an unloved mind
searching for closure
But can't you remember?
Can't you remember?
The way you used to be before
not just a skeleton
with a hunger for more than an empty fridge
I know it's hard to stay
with the voices in your mind telling you
"They don't want you here anyway
You'll never be good enough"
I know how hard it is to stay
when you just want to set yourself ablaze
But I still remember
I still remember
the oxygen I breathed before finding myself with the reflection of a stranger bleeding on the bathroom floor
When will I see that incandescence in your eyes again ?
