Thinking Thoughts that Sometimes Rhyme

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They tell me 'let it go'
Right after they say 'never give up'
They tell me what they think
When they don't know how it feels

I tell myself it's selfish
I know I don't have the courage
But I know I can't live like this
I'm to weak to be strong and too stubborn to be weak

I listen to all these stupid songs
About you're eyes going cold
And the spaces between us
And what ever happened to being enchanted

But nothing lasts forever
And it took me down hard
And I don't think my legs could stand
And I fell to me knees alone

And I can't help feeling that I can't feel anything
And I haven't cried except the very first night
And I still laughed at lunch that Thursday
And it's not like it was the last time

Have you ever laid awake hoping I'll stay
I don't know if I count the times I hope you're ok
But I know that nothing is infinite
But this is getting good now

Because I'm not sure if I miss you
And I don't know if you care
And I'm not sure if I'll ever cry
Because I'm not sure if it hurts this time

Did you realize that it happens so often
That the pain isn't even there anymore
That the trauma is gone and I've grown indifferent
And that I hate the way it feels

And it's all up to you this time
Because I'm not starting all over on my own
And if you want to fight let's fight for this
Because I'm not arguing one more time