Scars

Chapter 3

I woke up in the middle of the night
I checked the time it was 9:20. I set my phone down and walked to my dresser and picked out some night clothes then walked to my bathroom. As I got in the shower I tried not to remember what happened earlier, I knew if I thought about it that I would burst into tears. I played some Jhene Aiko music her music always calms me then I began to think of stuff that I really don't wanna think of. Memories came rushing through my head things like when my mother left us or when my father yelled at me every single day for not being tough enough, even strange things ran through my minds like when all boys tried to touch on me and I would cry until the stop and understand I don't wanna be touched. Then I suddenly began to realize that I'm not a little girl anymore and that trick wasn't gone work on Jeremy. I feel ashamed I feel that it's my fault that I got rapes and that I should of used the skills that my father taught me but I didn't I feel like a fool. I say to my self "Such a foolish girl" but this isn't exactly the right moment to feel like a fool I don't know what to feel anymore I can't stop reminiscing about all the bad things that had happened to me in my life. I ball up in the shower and cry, when I feel it's time for me to get out of the shower I stand up. My head is pounding really hard from all of that crying that I was doing , BOOM! I collapsed to the ground in the shower as everything went blank.