wild and running || a.b. (series on hold)

Chapter 31

I blankly stare at the wall and sip on my coffee. What was I thinking? What was he thinking? What were we thinking? That was not okay. How am I supposed to tell Andy? What am I supposed to say to Clay? He needs to leave. He needs to stop. I need to stop. I'm enraged with myself because I could have just ruined everything for a stupid decision. Clay had his chance, and he blew it. I need to realize that I deserve more. Andy is what I need and what I want. Anxiety sets in as I realize that me may not forgive me. I pour my coffee down the sink and head off to school to drown myself with knowledge.

I eventually get back to the apartment and feed Crow. I'm even more stressed than before, and I'm extremely worried about my relationship. I huff and look at my phone, finally receiving a text from Andy. 

*How are you, babe?*

I bite my lip. He would probably appreciate me telling him face to face, but I don't know if I can keep it in for two weeks. 

*Can we video chat?* I sent back. A few seconds later the TV rings. "Woah..." I say as I choose the accept button. 

"Hey!" He smiles. "Hey." I smile back a bit sadly. I examine is beautiful face and guilt fills my gut. "I see you figured out how to work the tv?" He sets down the laptop on his hotel bed. "Yeah. It's pretty cool." I reply while sitting on the couch. Crow crawls up in my lap and gives me about as much comfort I can get in this moment, not much. "You alright?" He asks as his eyebrows furrow together. Pain shoots through my heart. "No." I shake my head and the tears fall like a waterfall. "What? What is it?" He asks frantically. "I'm so sorry." I croak and try to catch my breath. "I-I—Clay and I k-kissed." I sob. I look up at the screen and wipe my eyes, black thick streaks marked down my face. 

The look on his face gave me so much pain. You could see the hurt in his eyes like darkness. I hope to never see his face so twisted again. "Well..." He says. I couldn't hold myself together, I just cried and cried. I balled myself up and stuck my head between my knees. "I'm going to be honest with you also because I respect that you told me. The reason I didn't text or call you last night is because I was high. I got into more weed again... I'm sorry. Are we even?" "Even?" I asked. "What I did is much worse than what you did." I finally got my breathing in check. "No," he said, "I understand because of what I know about the history of you guys. Now, I trust it won't happen again?" He said. "No, it won't." I reply confidently, surely.

MACHURE CONTENT

 "Now, we should probably make up for this." He says. "How?" I ask. He runs his hand through his hair and takes his jacket off. "I don't know, but I sure miss you." He removes his shirt and looks at the screen. "Man, you've got a lot of space on that sofa over there." He adds. "Uh, yeah." I sniffle. "So, what are you going to do with it?" He asks. "What are you talking about?" I question. A smirk spreads across his face and my face heats up. "Um... Andy..." I trail off. "Hm?" He says while undoing his belt on the big screen.

"I've never like..." I gesture my hands on my lower area and he chuckles. "Try it." He says. My mouth goes dry as his amount of clothing slowly decreases. "Just stand up. Let me see your ass in those leggings." I slowly stand and Crow jumps off the couch. "Um..." I say nervously. "Turn around for me, baby." He requests. I turn, still fully dressed in my clothes from my yoga class, and lift up my jacket. I arch my back a bit and bend over, he quietly sucks in a breath, but it was loud enough to where I could hear it. "You know how good you look, don't you?" He asks. "Not really." I reply while removing my jacket, leaving me in my sports bra and leggings. I run my hand through my long hair and turn around quickly so I couldn't stop myself because of how nervous I am. "Oh, I think you know." He says as his hand runs over his boxers revealing his large bulge. 

I sucked in a breath myself. "Are you alright? It looks like you've seen something." He runs his hand through his black hair and his tongue fiddles with his lip ring. "I'm fine." I reply. His hand covers the area again. "Alright." He says. My hand comes up in protest but I put it back down and close my eyes. "What? Tell me what's wrong." He says. "Don't play that." I respond. He chuckles sexily, "I'm not sure what you're talking about, sweetie." Feeling a burst of bravery, I remove my top and my hair falls to cover the newly exposed area. He stares intensely at the screen. "What? It looks like you've seen something." I try to hold back a smile. He huffs, "Your hair isn't bothering you in that position?" I shake my head. "Is your hand bothering you?" I return the question. "Nope." He says. He both sit back in frustration. "I've got all night, baby." He adds. 

I turn on the couch so the my legs are on it and remove my leggings. As I'm doing so, I hear him shuffling around. "Come on, baby. Turn to me." He says. I turn to him and flip my hair back. "Fuck. You're far away." He growls. "I've got a lot of space." I giggle nervously. He lips an eyebrow and I smile uncontrollably. "I can't even see you." I say. The camera is on his shoulders up. "Oh. You want to see me?" I nod hesitantly and he moves the laptop to the middle of the bed.

I gasp as his hand wraps around his length. He chuckles lowly and my eyes flutter. "Damn, I wish you were closer." My mind was completely focused on him, I barely heard that statement. "What?" He asks once again. "I-I.. Um..." I stutter. "You look a bit frustrated." He comments and the pressure between my legs grows rapidly."You can say that." I say. "Then stop resisting. I know you want to touch yourself." He responds. "I've never..." I trail off. My hands are sweaty and my mouth is as dry as the desert. "I know you know what to do." He says while continuing what he's doing. I nod. "You like watching me play with my big dick?" He asks. I nod once again. "Come on, sweetheart. Just do it. Play with your little pussy. " I sit nervously on the end on the couch.

"Try it." His low, raspy voice says slowly, "I know you would like it."

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Woah calm down over there it's okay XD

Just breathe.

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