I Like You. (Camren)

Chapter 5- Sweet Sixteen

                  

I love Dinah I do, but I can't do this. I'm with Lauren. I broke up with Dinah so I can make things work out with Lauren. The way I cried all those tears, the pain I went through just to make Lauren happen. I hurt Dinah and myself in the process just based on one decision. I can't just stop everything I'm doing just to go back with Dinah, can I? It would be like I'm going in a circle. Break up with Lauren to go with Dinah, just like I broke up Dinah to be with Lauren. That's why I cant.

So the way life works is you always make a decision, and I made mine.

Me: I love you. You're perfect, I wouldn't change anything because you're love was perfect, the way you love me is perfect, maybe even everything about you is perfect, the way you smile and bring me so much joy. I don't regret falling for you, because my heart at one time got to experience what love feels like. For a while I felt whole, like I had everything. But I just can't be yours. Not now. If anything you can call me baby if you like. We can still try to talk like before if it makes it easier but I'm with someone. You don't understand how much it breaks my heart to tell you because I know we've been here before. But the truth is I'm really starting to like them too.

Dinah: Maybe it was perfect for you Walz. But I wish I could have done something better. I keep thinking that I did something wrong and I drove you away. There's nothing I can do now, we can't be together and if I can't have you all to myself then I can't have you at all. I can't share you! It's just hard to accept that I've lost you.

Me: Ugh you're right I feel like a fucken jerk for suggesting that. I keep thinking about us too, from the bottom of my heart I mean it, I promise. I love you. *sigh* I love you so much it hurts. Honestly I don't even love her. I like her but its nothing compared to how I felt about you. But you're not here, you don't live around me. All I have these picture of you and beautiful words. With her, she's here. So right now I want to make it work, with her.

Once again I pick Lauren, the girl I only currently like, over Dinah the girl I love.

Dinah: I'm going to sleep, it was really stupid to ask tbh.

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Lauren: So did you know Ally is having a sweet sixteen in 2 weeks. She's all excited it's kind of cute. I however on the other hand don't want that day to come.

Me: Awe baby why not? It should be fun, all the dancing and you get to go out and not be stuck at home. Which is your favorite part because I know how much you hate being home. Plus I know Ally would love your support.

Lauren: Yeah but that means I have to wear a dress and you know how much I hate that.

Me: I bet you would look adorable in that dress.

Lauren: Stop!! Haha, So I was talking to Ally and she suggested that I invite you to her party, and I really want to see you again. So what do you say?

Me: It wouldn't be weird? Like what if her family starts asking who I am.

Something inside me knew that wasn't exactly the case. I want to go, I miss her. I'm going to a party Ally invited me to, it wasn't completely Laurens idea. But I know Ally only invited me because of Lauren. All her friends will be there including Normani. I know Lauren said its nothing and she's just her friend but I can't help but think that Normani doesn't like me around Lauren. As if they did have a thing and Normani secretly likes Lauren. Who can really blame her, Lauren is very likeable.

Lauren: It's okay if you don't want to come. I just thought it was a good idea to at least invite you because I really want to see you again.