Right Kind Of Wrong

this is too confusing

Baby tell me why u stop me.. I don't know what to tell him. .I don't have any profound reason .. I just think that's well gonna be sorta awkward .. I mean I couldn't look him in the eyes after we had sex for the first time for days .. and now with what I did tonight I may never see his big beautiful eyes ever again. It's so weird for me I get super shy.. like so shy I can't deal .. baby ? Idk.. I just get freaked out so easy.. I whisper .. has anyone ever? NO! he laughs. .. OK then he says .. he scoots in to me real close and gets right at my ear and says. I want to. I put my face against his chest again. He's smiling so hard .. he knows I can't talk about stuff. He says I'm serious baby I really want to .. .. why ? I ask with very Lil sound. He says once I've done it u want ask that again. His confidence his very disarming sometimes. It's crazy how confident he is about almost everything. . But I have to admit he has every right to be so far .. tonight was different, when jay settled in to go to sleep he didn't spoon in behind me. He laid his head on my chest and wrapped his arms around me and held me so tight .. I think I passed out from lack of oxygen, or exhaustion. . The next morning I wake up hearing someone talking I open my eyes and Tammie and my sister are standing the foot of the bed.. staring at jay and I ... Tammie is VIDEO ING ON HER PHONE. I whisper as not to wake jay. Wth are you two doing ? How did u get in my room ? And why don't u have coffee if ur gonna wake me ?? Huh.. Tammie puts her phone down and has this look on her face as if she is watching to baby panda bears play .. she says awww u two are super adorable! ! I look around to make sure we are both covered up completely. . Tammie says no worries my love we can't see any of his body parts .. Dee says dam shame .. I laugh and tell her to stop oooogling my man. They laugh. Dee says I can .. I say get out .. jay says go ladies get out. And points to the door he is laughing tho. Tammie says no can do .. jay rolls over off my chest and takes most of the blanket .. I'm naked here people. . They both say we've seen u.. jay says u ain't seen me and u ain't gonna so go .. he is using his drop dead sexy morning voice. ..oh what it does to me. Tammie whispers at Me that voice. I smile so big and giggle. Shaking my head yes . Jay says I can hear you. Stop oooooogling me. I'm not even awake yet. We all laugh. Jay puts his pout lips on .. I think all three of us lost it .. jay turns over to me and hides his face up against my back. He knows dam well what he has done. And the blanket on him isn't too much higher then his waist at this point. .. I yell at them GET OUT. They laugh and leave. Jay pulls me into him and is grumbling something into my neck .. I say what to him cuz I just didn't get that he looks me in the eye and says I love you .. I say I love you too. He puts out his sad lip. I say what do u want jay . He says we can do anything you want today anything at all .. if u will make me some of those pancakes the ones with the banana and Carmel ... I laugh .. I don't know if we have the stuff. .. oh we do baby ! Dad got it last night. He gives me the look that says I had this planned. . Oh OK .. anything ? He says anything but kinda hesitate. . Three hours later we have had breakfast and showers and did all up and Joe has arrived and we are set out to do what I want to do today. He he .. when me and Jay. Tammie and Joe arrive at the flea market. Joe looks like he'd rather be wearing a orange jump suit and picking up trash on the side of the road then to be here.. I laugh at him. Tammie says come on .. this is Mel's happy place. Jay looks like he couldn't be happier. ..