I was a drug addict and I loved every minute of it except for when I came off my high I realized that my problems were still there and so I would continue this cycle for many years after. My brother Derek Shepherd who is now dead used to help me try to get clean but I didn't want that I wanted to party to live on the wild side but I hit rock bottom when my fiancé died I thought I would never love again that was it my chance and now that's gone. After my fiancé died I said NOW I need to get clean and I did I've been clean for a year I love it I can see things clearer now I started working at Grey Sloan Memorial in 2014 with my brother and my sister in law but a year later my whole life changed my brother Derek Shepherd was in a car accident after he helped the people in front of him who was in another accident and he was pronounced dead at the hospital after they did brain surgery. What happened was he had swelling on the brain but the hospital wasn't a trauma hospital so they didn't do a CT they just took him to surgery where his brain began to bleed nobody caught it so he died I couldn't handle it and I still can't but I'm learning to cope and move on. While I was grieving I met this wonderful man doctor Owen Hunt he is so strong, sexy, and a good man I think I love him but only time will tell I want him to be THE ONE
