Letters

Second Letter

Dear love,

When will you understand how much you truly mean to me. How much I love you. I've loved you, before we even met. I saw you running and I told myself that I wanted you. My friends came by, I told them you were mine, without even knowing you.

When I met you, I went crazy and I figured out I actually liked you. I loved everything about you. I loved the fond memory of Dec 16, singing "First Date- Blink 182"; that day you became mine and my wish was completed.

After accomplishing that wish, another one came to me, I wanted to last forever with you. Then, I lost you, August 31. That day I was lost. Nightmares haunted me by night, by day I cried.

Yet, I still wanted you, because you were the one that set me free with the truth. Thanks to you, I am the person I am today, nice, caring, happy.. etc.

After years of changing for you, dreaming about you and wanting you, we became good friends. But once again, you became mine. We had both changed a lot. We were adults now. We were all good until one day we changed, once again.

My heart broke again when I knew it was over, but I hadn't given up yet, I had never given up from the start. I've chosen you to be my one and only. But I don't know what is wrong with you. You've always been so mysterious. Seems like you actually don't want me, but you say you do. You act distant but say it's normal. Our love is fading, but I still want you.

I noticed that I fell in love with you in the past, but right now, I hate that past you. But the love kept going no matter who you were. My love wanted to find out and meet this new you. My heart never stopped because I love this new you. Its amazing, although, you still have some of your last self. I'm still in love with you. Seems my mind chooses you but says you're not good for me, but my heart keeps trying and won't rest until your mind and heart are set for my heart. No matter how many times my heart cries out and my mind goes crazy. Doesn't matter how many times you hurt me but I stay silent. It doesn't matter how many times I cry and scream in silence and not tell you a thing, for being afraid to lose you. It seems my heart doesn't care how many times you hurt me, it will always looks for you, no matter where you are.
           -With lots of love, Alondra.