In The Scorch ➸ [DISCONTINUED]

Should I quit? [a/n]

So.

I just kinda want to get deep for a moment.

Countless times like on the first book and this one, people say my writing is good when I alway say its bad. And I am so thankful and grateful and overjoyed. But some times I wonder if I should honestly quit..writing I mean.

A few years ago a teacher of mine gave me a really bad mark on a story I wrote. I didn't even pass. It was about a snowboarder who hurt himself before the olympics, his dream.

She told me it was unrealistic.

Ever since then, I've felt sad when it comes to writing.

I LOVE writing. And...when she made me feel like I sucked....I honestly wanted to cry.

Some days I wish I could scream out: I HAVE SUCCESSFUL BOOKS ONLINE THAT THOUSANDS OF PEOPLE READ.

But I can't.

I wanted to take AP English next year.

And my teacher said no. That I wouldn't be 'comfortable' in it.

I love writing, reading, English history.

Why can't I just be good enough?

Last year I had a different teacher for English and she said my story I wrote about a plane crash was amazing.

I guess that boosted my confidence.

But then my dad told me a few days ago: 'I don't think you should do AP you get bad grades on your writing'

And that's when I almost broke saying people like my writing online.

It's just....I don't know.

I'm so thankful for you guys. You always say my writing is amazing when yea, there are countless mistakes. (I write on my phone usually so). You always joke with me, make me laugh (although some of you scare me xD )

So thank you. For making me feel like I can do something worth while.

-Hailey xx

[ I'm sorry if I bug anyone with this, I just had to get this off my chest :(( ]