ISLAM POEM

I've tried...

I've tried so many times.

To ease my mind

Tried to keep me focused on the goal of this worldly life.

I've really tried

I will say this clearly , straight and surely I won't hide

That my feelings are crashing here deep inside.

That place that I know as the centre of my body ,,my heart."

I only want to please the One and Only.

The Creator, The most forgiving and The Merciful.

But unfortunately I failed

I've really tried

Not to be a sinner

To avoid my bad habits

And be the one who will be an hereafter winner.

But I'm only a weaken soul

My heart feels like a black hole

Empty and cold

I have the feeling like I'm drown

By the weight of my bad sins.

Facing my failures like I've been haunted by them.

I've tried within all my power to cling to the positive side of life.

But the fear of failure inspires my anxiety that much at night.

I've like to humble my self to his mercy.

But I'm in a turbulent war.

Battling

Against those evil spirits

Don't want to please them or give them the satisfaction of my doubts.

I'm really trying

To turn down fact that my inner hurts like I'm dying

Shattered pieces of my heart

Spread all around causing a deep impact

To my soul and that's sad.

Tempted by creatures who've want my bad.

I'm struggling to find myself

Worshipping Allah (swt) is my main goal in life.

Solely and truly the pad of redemption is for those who claim to find they're way back to the one and only.

Those who find the pleasure and serenity in they're prayers. And with no doubt I'm searching for my selfless peace.

That peace that will ease my weakened soul.

To heal itself from the bad influence, the emptiness and the cold.