Excerpt 5 From The Book I'll Never Write

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"one day I'll say I'm okay
another day I'll say I'm fine
but you were too blind to see everything was not alright
I cracked a smile and joked around
and then at night I'd start to drowned
in my tears, in my sorrow
so all those times I clowned around were just a disguise of my frowned upon self"
5:55 am:
I wake up day to day, praying that today will be the day, the day my pride is true and that'll be my cue that everything will be okay even after the bewildered pain.
10:37 am:
I'll be sitting around not knowing what to do, but my thoughts always come back to you, like a broken record, always on repeat, who knew I'd face defeat
2:17 pm:
the day goes on and my smile is held out long, but it starts to fade like a want of a getaway
7:56 pm:
I'm on the verge of my breaking point, not knowing where this all started, but soon I'll find out when i overthink into a drink
11:37 pm:
I'm shaking, I'm crying I don't know what to do, all of my thought relapse and revolve around you, I want to getaway too, but I can't get rid of the thought of you.
2:07 am:
I should be asleep like everyone else but my throat has a big bubble in need to come out, I have to be quite so I'm not caught but at this point it's been quite enough, I don't want to think about you anymore, and this time I collapsed on the floor not being able to take it anymore.
5:55 am:
the cycle then starts again, always having the same end.

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⏰ Last updated: Feb 02, 2016 ⏰

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