Don't leave me - Josh Washington X Reader

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I felt dry tears on my cheeks. ,,Y/N it's okay. Do you hear me?? I'm here.'' Josh tried to calm me down. ,,Josh??'' ,,Yeah. It's me. Calm down.'' he was saying calmy. I felt tears running down my cheeks again. I hugged him and laid my head on his chest. ,,What...what are you doing here??'' I would bet he barely understood me. He pulled back and looked at me. ,,I can't...be like this anymore. Please...help me.'' I cried. Did I really just said that?? I couldn't!! I would never say something like this to him!! Or...did I really pleaded him to help me?? ,,It's okay now. Do you hear me?? I'm here...for you.'' he was calming me and pulled me closer to his chest.

,,Why...why are you here?? I asked when I was calmed a little bit. ,,I was there with them just for a moment and then I was looking for you. But it doesn't matter. What happened?? What did you see??'' ,,Uh...oh. Just...I had hallucinations. I have them sometimes. And...yeah. That's exactly what happened. I...I saw my best friend who...passed away.'' I started crying again when I thought about Abby. ,,I guess you don't want to talk about it.'' I noded. ,,So...you were drawing, right?? Let me see. It's really-'' he stopped when he saw my picture. I was painting just this scenarion. Is it that bad?? ,,It's really...who is it??'' he handed me my picture. Nonono!! W-Why...NO!! I didn't draw this!! I was drawing just this beautiful scenario. Something like this...it already happend to me.'' I was explaining and looking at my sketch of dead Abby. Her expression was terrible. Her arm was missing and she had blood everywhere. ,,Are you okay??'' ,,It's better.'' I responded. He took his bag and pulled out a camera and sat next to me. ,,What are you doing??'' ,,I haven't told you this, right?? I'm learning how to make good films. I wanna be cameraman or director just like my parents.'' ,,Oh...that's good.'' I said surprised.

We were sitting next to each other. I was painting and he was recordning the scenarion. ,,Say hello.'' I looked at him and saw that he is recordiong me. ,,No. Stop recordning me.'' I was laughing and hid my face. ,,Oh c'mon. The scenario is beautiful but it would be even more beautiful with you.'' he winked. ,,Nah c'mon.'' I was blushing. He stood up and went a few steps away. I was watching him and when I noticed he was recording me again I stood up too and made a star closer to him. ,,Ta-da. Hi everyone. I am Y/N and this is Josh.'' we were laughing. ,,You can't see him but I do. So I'll describe him. So...he has dark, short hair, those big stunning eyes, expressive facial features and interesting lips. He is higher than me. And...he has a sport figure...I guess.'' I noticed that he raised his eyebrow and smirked. ,,Lend it to me.'' I said and grabbed his camera and started recording him. ,,Hey to everyone!! So...this is me. Joshua Washington. Josh for short. So...uhm...yeah. So this is me. Future successful cameraman and director.'' he laughed. He took his camera back and after a while he turned it off and sat next to me.

,,This looks better.'' he commended when he saw my new sketch. There wasn't any body anymore but beautiful scenario. It started getting darker and we were still sitting next to each other and were watching the scenario. ,,We should go.'' Josh said and stood up. ,,I wish we could stay a little bit longer.'' I sighed. I turned around but Josh wasn't there. ,,Where are you??'' I was laughing coz I knew he was just hiding somewhere. I took my bag and went back to cars. ,,I'll wait for you at cars.'' I shouted and continued walking. Sudenly I felt something on my shoulder. ,,Boo!!'' Josh shouted. I was waiting something like this but I jumped anyway and I stumbled over a root or something. When I was falling I reflexively grabbed something. Josh's arm. I pulled him down with myself and he fell right on me. We were laughing hard when he was holding himself above me on his hands. ,,You are a bumpkin.'' ,,Me?? You scared me!!'' I protested. We were looking into each other's eyes and our noses were almost touching. I closed my eyes and our lips connected. He gave me a soft kiss and I kissed him back but I stoped and pulled back. He looked surprised. ,,We shouldn't be doing this.'' I pushed him away and hurried to our car leaving him behind. 

Everyone was already there. ,,Hey Y/N. What's up??'' Matt asked. ,,Where's Josh?? Oh nevermind...Y/N do you think we could change our places?? Pretty please. I need to solve something with Ash.'' Sam pleaded. That's great. Thank you Sam. ,,Yeah. Yeah sure we can.'' I said and sat where Sam was sitting on our way here. Next to my dad. I put my headphones into my ears. What have we done?? What have I done. What has he done?? I saw Josh was already there and he sat without any word behind driving wheel.

When everyone was in car my dad gave me an asking look. And I gave him mine: ,,I don't want to talk about it.

When we arrived to our city I was pretending that I'm sleeping. Everyone said bye and my dad drove them to their houses. Just as we were home I said to my parents that I'm really tired and I'm going to the bed. I think I was in the shower for more than one hour. He wants to play with you. You are his toy. No...no!! He's not like that. Oh really?? What is he like?? You don't know him!! You know nothing about him!! Everyone is the same. No...he's not!! He's not!!  Why would he want you?? Why?? You are no one. You are nothing. You are a zero. Stop!! ,,Shut up!!'' I screamed histerically. 

I took my meds and lay on my bed. That scene between me and Josh was still running through my mind. I stood up and took some pills for sleeping. I shouldn't take that much...and combine them like this. But...I can't be without them. I swallowed couple of pills and lay back.

I woke up with by screaming. I was screaming but I hadn't any dream. That was weird. 3:13 AM...great. Maybe...a little walk will help me. I wore my yoga pants and my favourite sweatshirt and in absolute silence left the house. 

Air outside was pleasantly warm. But where should I go?? I don't have any favourite place yet. The only place I know...is Josh's. And I like it there... I decided I'll go right there. There's no chance he would be there right now. I put my headphones in and started running. It's a while since I was training. I should start again. In my old town I run every morning. I needed to take a break in half of way. ,,Shit. I really need to start training again.'' I laughed for myself. 

It was really dark. I was walking right to the bench. I wanted to sit already when I noticed someone was already laying there. I was really surprised. I couldn't see who it was but I was sure it was Josh. I turned back and wanted to go away but he grabbed my arm and pulled me back. I bumped into his chest. He hugged me and I hugged him back. ,,Why??'' he asked simply. ,,Sam.'' he pulled back. ??What?? What's with Sam??'' he didn't get it. ,,We can't do this to her.'' ,,What are you talking about??'' ,,You...you and Sam...I thought-'' ,,What?? NO.'' he laughed a little bit. ,, No?? I mean like...you look like you are really close.'' I explained. ,,We know each other since we were in diapers. And if you mean that hug...her dad is in hospital and they called her that he is okay.'' ,,I couldn't know that.'' I laughed. ,,No you couldn't but...do you really think this about me. Like...I would do something like this to her if we were dating??'' he asked seriously. ,,No. I...you are right. I was stupid...sorry.'' ,,Nah that's okay.'' he smiled finally and gave me a kiss on my forehead. ,,But...what are you doing here anyway??'' ,,I couldn't sleep so I took-'' I stopped. ,,What's wrong??'' ,,I took these pills for better sleeping but I woke up anyway.'' just as I finished that sentence my legs buckled but Josh caught me. ,,Y/N what's happening?? Are you alright?? Hey talk with me.'' ,,I need...I...sleep.'' was the last thing I said and then everything went black.

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