Zoe Taylor (18 years old) is a simple girl who is kind of a nerd and kind of a badass(if she need to be one). She has the perfect body and face, also she was known as the prettiest girl in her old college( girls were jealous of her). She has a big...
It's been 2 week since Alfie and me being together. He means the world to me.â¤ï¸â¤ï¸
Beep beep. It's 7am in the morning. I got out my bed did my morning routine.outfit👇ðŸ»ðŸ‘‡ðŸ»
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I changed, put my makeup on and done my hair. I ran downstairs and got a Granola bar and got in my car. I went to Starbucks and got my drink. I drove to college an started to walk to where me and Alfie meet every morning. I walked there I cannot believe what I was seeing. Alfie was kissing another girl. Tears came down my eyes and I felt anger in me. I walked up there and pulled Alfie. I asked him what he was doing. I Asked him does he even love me. He said "Can't u hear me I don't love u. I just used u. Why would I love a bitch. Look at u. U r ugly and messed up. I bet u were a mistake to everyone. Even ur family. I bet they regret having u. I just used u for sex. And u actually think I love u". I said I hate him and ran away. I could not believe my ears. I hate him. I ran into my car. I believed every word he said. I know he was right. I hate my life. "I'm really a mistake. Alfie is right I'm a mistake. No one wants me" I said to myself. I brought my legs to my chest and started to cry out loud. My makeup was running down my face. I cried for about 20 min. I couldn't be noticed like this in front of the school. I quick wiped my tears and started to drive. As I was driving tears started to role down my eyes again. I turned my music on. In the music came a recording of me and Alfie singing- Ellie Goulding- LOVE ME LIKE U DO. I smiled at the recording but my tears were coming out my eyes even more when I heard Alfie's voice. I reached home. Thank god my parents weren't home. I ran into my room and shut the door. BANG💥💥. I looked at the my wall college of me and Alfie. I had our selfies and photo shoot pictures. Everyday I added 10 pictures to it. By now my wall on top of my bed was filled with 140 pictures. I was on my bed crying.i was hugging the big teddy bear Alfie gave me.
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My face was all wet. I cried as much as I wanted. I couldn't believe what Alfie said. He used me. He doesn't love me. I'm a mistake. My family must regret me. He is right. I'm a bitch. I'm just a mistake everyone regrets. Everyone thinks I'm a mistake. I was crying like a baby. I suddenly heard a knock on my door. "ZOZO open the door" it was Joe. "J-j-joe please not now" I was crying between my sentence. "ZOZO I'm telling u to open the door now or I will break the door." He said but I didn't reply him. I banged on the door and unfortunately he opened the door with his tricks that he learned in school to opened a door. He opened the door and came to me. He gave me a hug . I laid my head on his warm chest. He is one of the person that can calm me down but Alfie can do it better. I cried in his chest not caring to control my tears. "ZOZO what happened?" He asked. "I-I-im a mistake to everyone. I know u and mom and dad regret having me" I said crying even more. I don't know why I can't control my tears. "Who said that. And u r not a mistake. I love u and so do mom and dad. U can never be a mistake." He said. "Joe u don't need to lie. I know I'm a mistake. Ever person I love leaves me" I said to him. It's true every person I love leaves me. "Don't tell that Alfie broke ur heart" he asked me. "I'm sorry Joe for not listening to u when u said that he will break my heart. And I know im a mistake" I said to him. "For fuck sake he did that to u and die he say u were a mistake?" He asked and I nodded. "This is the second Time this happened to me. I'm definitly a mistake." I said. I know what u think 2nd time?? Yes I'd been like this before. I was 14 when i had my first boyfriend that I loved more that anything. He was my first kiss. My first love. My first true love. I loved him more than anyone. We dated for 2 years. I was nearly 17 when he tried having sex with me. I didn't want it that early. I said I don't wanna do this and I want him to stop. I didn't allow him to do this so he broke up with me. He said horrible things about me when he broke up our relationship. He said I was a mistake just like Alfie said. I hated my self. That's was the main reason we moved because i never wanted see him. I tried not to notice him for 1 year but could see I was hurt so my parents Said we need to move. They couldn't see me upset. Joe was angry. After I came here I felt happy again because Alfie was with me but who knew I will end up where I was. Back to reality!!!
"Joe just leave me alone for now. I don't wanna be a stress to u and my parents. I know I was a mistake. I'm for sure now" I told him. "ZOZO" I cut him off. "Joe plz i can't" I told him and he walked out the room. I started to cry. I locked the door and I locked it hard so Joe won't be able to open it again or my parents won't be able to open it with the spare keys. I stood by the door and started to break down. I was on the floor.
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I wish I could die right now. I cried for 20 mins. I only I want to do right now is cut my wrist with razor. I did this when Chad (my ex boyfriend) broke me down. I cut both my hand. It was bleeding. I didn't care. I hand the same pain 1 year ago.
I hate myself. I'm the biggest mistake. 🔪🔪🔪🔪💔💔💔💔😔😔😔😔
