Shh...It's A Secret [Luke Hemmings]

23

-Ellie-

4 months.

It's been 4 months.

It was April and I had dyed my hair grey in early February but didn't like it so I got it stripped of the dye before dying it red again. I liked red a lot. So currently, Luke was watching tv on my couch whilst Jake was at work and I was cleaning up after making us both dinner. "...I'm falling for your eyes...but they don't know me yet..." I sang Ed Sheeran's song under my breath whilst washing dishes.

"Hey Lu..."

I walked over to my couch and saw him with a blanket tangled around his legs, chest rising and falling slowly as he slept, completely unaware of the television still on in the background. I smiled to myself and when I went to pick the remote up so I could turn it off, he mumbled out sleepily, "No, babe, I'm watching it.."

He reached out a hand and groped around for me, eyes still closed but when his fingers brushed my cheek I couldn't help but laugh. He smiled and grabbed my face pulling it close to him so I leaned down. He left a big, sloppy kiss on my temple and mumbled out a groggy, "thank you" before wrapping his arms around my neck and laying his head on my shoulder, falling fast asleep again; his body half on the couch and half on me.

I chuckled and sighed shutting the tv off and pulling up the blanket and climbing in next to him feeling his arms sculpt around my hips. I know you're wondering why I don't just tell Luke I like him or ask him if he likes me as much as I like him but there's something that happens everytime I go to. My voice gets small and I feel like I'm drowning in my own thoughts.

I sat there laying in my best friends arms cuddled against him hoping he'd suddenly wake up and ask me simply to be his. But no. Not that I'm mad or anything. But the last time we kissed it was different. The last time was when I kissed Luke when he was asleep. I know he was unconscious so he didn't know so obviously he couldn't respond but it just made me think. Do I even want to go out with my best friend? No no no we're not just friends anymore. We're not friends with benefits but we're not just plain friends anymore. It was getting colder and school was getting difficult since our final exams were in a month and a half. In these past 4 months we've written about 10 songs which management is on my case about since they would like more but I couldn't write everything for them and the boys were a bit stumped. I sighed and started thinking about prom. Audry was starting to look up dresses for the big night since Mikey asked her last week and I was still stuck on this lonely island called 'Forever Alone.' Population: only fucking 1.

Anyway 'Heartache on the Big Screen' has to be my favorite out of all of the new songs. Tomorrow was the 9th which means it's Audry's birthday and I was going to have her mum call her out of class midday so I could bring her to one of the boys shows that was fairly local.

(A/N: #IF YOU LISTEN TO 21 PILOTS #YOU TOTALLY GOT THAT PUN #HELLZ YAH BITCHES)

So hopefully she likes that. Also just a few hours ago the boys and I wrote a song called 'Rejects' that I really think the fans are gonna like. I felt my eyes getting heavy and let myself slip into a dreamless sleep.

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I woke up cold meaning that Luke had left. He texted me to tell me why, which is sweet but I missed his warmth.

Penguin boyyy🐧-hey els, my mum wanted me home :-( srry babe
Me-it's okk
Penguin boyyy🐧-I'll talk to you tomorrow okay?
Me-okk
Penguin boyyy🐧-ly ttyl sleep well☺️

I must be coming down with something because it is currently 10pm and I'm exhausted. Usually I can work myself until 3 or 4am but lately I've either had too much on my mind or I haven't felt good and have just conked the fuck out on the couch with my guitar in my hand.