dear diary,
it felt like i was drowning in the darkness. all my hope from yesterday when aphmau sorta cared about me, seemed to escape my mind. i just wanted to disappear and not live at all. it was not like the other day when i couldn't get out of bed, i just didn't want to be alive. period. it's not an unfamiliar feeling for me, but it's not necessarily pleasant feeling either.
today i saw her though. she looked beautiful, as she always did. it's just, she was coming back from aaron's house. aphmau looked happier then she ever did when she came back from hanging out with me. at least she's happy.
yours sincerely,
laurance
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Fanfictionlaurance realizes the true light in his world *note that this story has many references to things that may be triggering to others such as depression*
