Boyish love (kakashiXoc)

Grief

I sigh, walking out, a backpack on my back. Just scrolls mainly and weapons, my clothing sealed within the scrolls, as well as food and other items I needed, I sigh and make my way to the gates.. I looked up at them nervously.. I suddenly felt a hand on my shoulder making me flinch,
"Don't be nervous Masayuki" it was Kakashi, I sigh in slight relief as I look back at my Sensei..
"I'm not nervous" I state, kakashi smiles a closed eye smile at me
"I can tell your nervous Masayuki, you don't need to deny it" he stated walking past me.. I watch him quietly.. Okay I have to admit my teacher is pretty cool.. I sigh as I stare at the forest beyond the gate... I then looked down to my feet.
'Gomen.. Kano" I whisper.. Sighing.. I then looked back to see Sakura Sasuke and Naruto coming up to us, I nod and sigh. I look back at the gates...
"Nothing good will come from this mission.." I whisper. I had never been fazed to be a ninja.. Only when I was 7 was I ever absorbed into becoming a ninja.. Now it means nothing to me if I become a high ranked ninja. I frown to myself as I began walking, hands stuffed into my pockets as I kept my head down.. Walking at the front,
"Masa-kun! What's wrong?!" Sakura shout, I growled. Pushing her away
"Just go" I growl, Sakura shaken by my words "leave me alone!" I shout. Naruto frowned
"What's your problem?!" Naruto shouted, i glared back at him.
"Shut up and leave me alone" I say more quietly, kakashi looking at me concerned.. I growl.. then sigh
"Sensei, I'll stay behind I need some time to think" I say towards Kakashi, kakashi nodded
"Catch up when your ready then" I nod my head as they contiue moving, Sakura against the idea
"But Sensei! We can't leave Masa-kun alone!"
"Sakura, he needs space, just leave him alone for a little bit" I heard Kakashi want Sakura, I sigh as I sit on the ground... A once happy family.. Now reduced to one single member.. I sigh and rest my head on my hands as I try to get the thoughts out of my head..
"Gomenasai... Aniki.. Aneki... Otouto.. Imouto... Okaasan.. Otousan..." I whisper quietly.. I closed my eyes tightly.... I then heard someone walk up to me.. I heard someone crouch down Infront of me..
"Masayuki? You alright?" They asked softly.. I opened my eyes slightly and nodded
"Yeah.. Just caught up on the past is all.." I say wiping my tears.. He seemed to know what I meant. He then rested his hand on my shoulder
"You ready to come back to the group?"
"Y-yeah" I say sighing, he then smiled.. As he patted my head and stood up.
"Come on then, don't want Sakura coming right?"
"Y-yeah" I say wiping my eyes again.. At least he didn't hear me when I said my family..

♦️kakashi's pov♦️
I'm still kinda shocked that he cried.. It's not unusual but.. I sighed, walking Masayuki back to the group. He just seemed so depressed.. Reminds me of when my teammates died. It's strange that I can relate to the boy is so many ways... I sigh and looked at him,
"If you need more time we can stop" I suggest just in case.. Don't want him breaking down Infront of the others..
"No I'm fine.... But thanks.." I glanced to him and smile a little
"For what Masayuki?"
"For coming back to check on me.. Sorta made me feel better" he said sighing, I smile
"Just returning the favour" I say sighing, he just looks at me and sighs.
"Yeah.." The other four then came into view, I sighed as Masayuki composed himself and sighed
"You alright?" I ask, he nods and smirks at me
"Yep I'm fine!" He says cheerfully. I smile slightly and no
"If you say so Masayuki" I whisper.. Sakura then ran up to the boy.
"Masa-kun!!" She shouted alarmed as she hugged him. I sweatdrop, she does know he doesn't like her that way right? Sasuke and Naruto sigh as tazuna walks up to me..
"Those are the ninja that's supposed to be protecting me?!"
"Don't worry, I'm a jounin. Nothing will happen" I assure the client. Masayuki gives me a doubtful look.
"I don't nothing will happen.." He states, I sigh
"Nothing will, there aren't any major fights on C ranks of we'll be alright"
"Says you" Masayuki growls. "You don't know anything" he growls, I sigh ignoring the boys comment. What a little brat, but I don't blame him.. Having never been out of the village.. Must be nervous or something.. I then watched the team and our client.. I wonder what else that boy is hiding..

🔲Masayuki's pov🔳
I sigh.. I hate having to be out here.. It just reminds me of how many people I've lost... In the midst of battle or just at home.. Murder.. Miscarriages.. I sigh.. If only they were here.. I wouldn't feel so alone.. I sigh as we walk onto a boat, the owner of the boat was the clients Friend. I kept spacing out on the way there, sometimes gazing at the water.. Tazuna watched me with a concerted look
"Is he alright?" Tazuna asked.. Hell even if I cry they can't tell I'm a girl.. Well dad always did say that I was a tomboy.. I sigh as Naruto frowned
"What's the matter koda?" Naruto asked, I looked up at the blonde and smiled behind my mask
"Nothing Naruto just thinking..." I whisper.. Kakashi gave me a saddened look. Probably understanding more then anyone what I was going through.. I sigh and run my hand through the water. I stare at it.. My mind was else where.. I sighed and took my hand out of the water. Siting back up properly and sighing.. 'Just being outside of the village is causing me to be depressed' I thought sighing but it'll get so much worse when we're in the hidden mist.. It'll just bring back memories.. Painful.. Sad memories that I want to forget and not be reminded of..