Poems

I'll

I'll fake a smile.
I'll say I'm alright. I'm okay. I'm fine.
But nothing's the same anymore.
My tears are finally dried.
But on the inside I'm dying.
I'm gone.
I'm dead.
No one can fill the space.
No one can understand my pain.
Only a few can.

Why you?
Why now?
Why did it have to be you!?
Why so young??
Why so innocent?!
Why YOU?!!!

We made a promise that night.
We said we'd stay.
We said we'd be together forever.
Brother and sister until the end.
It was us against the world.
You and I together forever.
Fighting the haters and bullies until we die.

But you've left.
You left me to face the world alone.
You left me to die alone.
You left me to face them alone.
You left me to fight alone.

I'm a warrior without its armor.
A heart that's broken.
A half without its whole.
A sister without her brother.
I have no twin now.
I have no other half anymore.

I cried and cried.
Begged and begged for you not end your life.
This time I got no response.
I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.
I'm hardening my heart now.
No one will get through.
No one will make me laugh.
No one will make me happy.
No one else can.
No one else could but you.

I can't believe you're gone.
I can't believe you're not here.
I can't believe I failed again.
I can't believe my other half is dead.
I can't believe how easy it is to fake everything.
I can't believe I lost my twin.
I can't believe I lost my brother.
I can't believe I lost the half of my heart.
I can't believe this.

The tears I've shed.
The heart break.
The hurt.
The sadness.
The memories.
The conversations.
The happy parts.

I miss talking to you everyday.
I miss your smile.
I miss your laugh.
I miss your giggles.
I miss your love.
I miss your warmth.
I miss your cuddles.
I miss your words.
I miss your kindness.
I miss everything.
I miss the jokes.
I miss the love.
I miss your understanding.
I miss your personality.
I miss laughing.
I miss truly smiling.
I miss you.
I miss my other half.
I miss my twin.
I miss my brother.
I miss my favorite twin.
I miss my Zekey.
I miss my wholeness.
I miss the feeling id get when you told me how much I matter.
I miss your texts.
I miss your happiness.
I miss everything about you.