January 21st, 2020
A Day to Remember part 2
Hope is a sad lie given to us by people with higher authority to make it seem like life is worth living until we get old and our organs decide they don't have the energy to function anymore. Hope is the bittersweet deception most people have to believe in to get themselves through another day. Hope is something we don't always see. Hope is something that, even as a child, we find ourselves believing in. Hope is the biggest joke played on humanity since Love, maybe even bigger. Not everyone believes in Love, I'm sure you could go around to any rebellious teenager and they'll tell you how Love doesn't exist. Is Love an emotion or is it a state of mind? Is Love a thought or is it an idea?
Love is so much different from Hope. People have opinions on Love, they can feel Love and even share it with other people. Some people think they need Love to survive, though that's not exactly true. What Hope and Love have in common is that they are both created by the human mind. Although, they're completely different. Many people believe in Love, with the exception of the small percent of the population that think they don't need Love. Everyone believes in Hope. Whether you decide to on your own or whether you haven't thought about it until now, Hope is in the back of your mind. Hope is what fuels your initiative. Hope is not an emotion, it's not a state of mind. Hope is not a thought nor is it an idea. Hope is like human nature. Hope has been forced upon billions of people. Hope is terribly inconvenient. Hope isn't always given to us by choice. Hope is that nagging thing in the back of your mind. Hope is belief. Hope is religion.
Hope is God.
God is a sad lie given to us by people with higher authority to make it seem like life is worth living until we get old and our organs decide they don't have the energy to function anymore. God is the bittersweet deception most people have to believe in to get themselves through another day. God is something we don't always see, or believe in. God is something that, as a naive child, we find ourselves believing in.
Is my view on things like Hope, Love, and God different from regular people's views because I don't have any emotions? Maybe. Do I think that emotions get in the way of the things that really matter? Yes, definitely. But, if the human race was like me, they would of died off and murdered each other before they could draw what they had for dinner on cave walls.
I'm not sure if you can tell, but I'm frustrated. Mostly with myself, maybe a bit with humanity and God, even though I don't believe in God, as well. Other people believe in God, does that make it okay to be frustrated with him even though I personally don't believe in him? If there is or ever was a God, I am very angry with him right now.
For one, who do I blame for not being able to feel? The only person I can blame right now is myself. And two, who the hell thought it was a good idea to let the sun set in Nunavut at 2pm? You could tell me God, but I think physics and the universe would be a better explanation. Can I blame a branch of science and the vast, unknown, space?
Cal and I arrive at the Kimmirut Transmission Station around 1:30pm, the sun in the distance is ready to set and I'm glad we didn't wait until later to drive out here. It gets very cold after the sun disappears. We pull up close to the building, it's larger than I thought it would be, consisting of two structures that are attached by a thin, sealed, hallway. The larger of the two buildings, which is probably the size of a small bungalow, holds a tall, metal contraption. It's obviously the radio transmission device sending off and receiving the radio waves.
I haul the gym bag to the door of the larger building, being careful not to knock off my oxygen mask, with Cal following in my footsteps. My boots sink into the snow several time before reaching it. There's an air tight lock on the door, along with the tiny windows that line the wall, the windows themselves look about half a foot thick.
