I just finished recording a new video and now I'm sitting here looking at my computer screen, waiting on the video to upload on youtube.
I put both my hands up to my head, sighed and look down on the keyboard.
God, I feel miserable. I feel bad for putting a fake face on over for my fans, but I have too. I mean, I can't look depressed on my videos, then I lose subscribers and not getting payed so much.
This is really stressfull, this "job" I have. I spend hours after hours looking at a computer screen, scaring myself to death playing those horror games, if I get a heart attack someday while recording a new video, then there's only myself to blame
If I even survive that heart attack. Nobody would come to check on me, besides Wade, if I don't answer my phone, but then it's probably too late.
and who cares?...
I got no one, no girlfriend, no family besides Tom, my brother. I haven't talked or seen my mum, since she kicked me outta the house
I took a deep breath and stood up and walked out of my bedroom and into my small living room. I sat down on the couch and turned on the tv, after wasting half an hour watching tv, I went into my bedroom once again to check if the video had been uploaded to youtube.
and finally it had, I immediately logged off youtube, and shut down my computer.
now the worst part of my life is about to happend, I sit alone and get some terrible thoughts, I have consideret suicide, but then I remember all the fans writing to me telling how I stopped them from committing suicide and I immediately stop thinking about that
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Save you tonight - Markiplier fan fiction
FanfictionOn the outside Mark seems like a happy guy, especially in his youtube videos. But his many fans doesn't know that when he says "bye, bye!" and turns off the camera, he starts to feel despressed and the smile of his disappears and he starts to feel l...
