What Could Have Been and What Should Never Be. (Sarah/Gee) (Kat/Frankie)

Wastin All My Time. -Kat-

Why am I being treated differently? Have I done something to make people treat me like a little kid? It's like I'm glass being passed around.  I was getting annoyed by all the side ways glances I was getting. Even worse Frank has been acting distant, His mood swings have been worrying me. I mean like he is all I have. I love him. It like there's a huge secret that everyone knows but me.

My mind raced through the many thoughts about things. It's been four days since we've gotten here and already there is drama. I thought the reason we toke this vacation was to escape the drama. I played in the pool, Sarah swam in the deep end with the kids while I stayed by where the water only came up to my hips. Cassidy was lounging on a chair happily listening to music. The pool was like a ghost town, not even kidding. I wasn't supposed to stay in for too long because the water was a bit chilly. I watched as Jordan went and climbed up the diving board ladder, a goofy smile played his face, Terry followed him closely. Nick and Logan sat on the boggie boards they bought while Fae sat in the tube. They act like they don't have a pool back home. I smiled and got out of the pool slowly. A soft cotton towel wrapped around me. I sat down between Cassidy and Holly. Joey and Wren were in the pool. I don't know why but the excitment and joy in the kids' laughter sent me back to a time where I wasn't a mother or married.

Okay so here I am kissing Frank fucking Iero in the tour bus. Sarah is with Gerard doing God knows what. I know this is so wrong because they're like twenty something and I'm nineteen. But I don't care. I used to have a crush on Dean, yeah that's out the window. I had to remember to breath. My mind was hazed with this moment. I've been dreaming of meeting this man, but kissing him. I think I need to stop now before my heart explodes out of my chest. I pulled away from him, I noticed where his hands were. One was on the center of my back and the other crept it's way up inside my shirt, it was only on my waist though. I sighed and looked down into my lap.

"I'm sorry." He whispered softly. I blinked and nodded.

"It's okay." I muttered in a hushed voice. Frank removed his hands from my body and we both sat there quietly. We pulled up to the hotel they were staying at, it was all the way down in London. It's a nice hotel, I've been here before but only once or twice in the last year. I didn't want to go any where but just stay here. Gerard and Sarah emerged from the back lounge with giggles and reddened faces. Sarah jumped out of the bus, Gerard trailing behind her. Then Mikey and Ray emerged.

"Hey! Sleeping beauty is awake!" Ray said with a cheery voice. Oddly enough I wasn't freaking out like I thought I would. I smiled and blushed.

"Did Prince Frank kiss you?" Mikey asked being a bit nosey. I looked at him and felt my face heat up.

"Actually, yes he did." I said with a flat tone. They looked at Frank, then me, then at eachother. Then they both jumped out of the bus. Now it was just Frank and myself. It was quiet and awkward until Frank started asking me questions about who I am. I don't mind answering them, they're innocent questions and nothing else. I told him about my past and what I've been going through, he just watched me with this gaze that said he wasn't interested. I felt a sharp pain in my heart as I began to fall for him.

"Most guys don't think I'm pretty, or they say they don't want me or I'm nothing." I said softly. Frank's eyes were just looking at me with this gaze. I didn't want any of this to happen. I just wanted to go to Sarah's house and pretend this never happened. I can't trust men, not after what my dad and my brother's friend did to me. I can't trust them. I will only end up getting hurt so in a way I'm only protecting Sarah and myself.

"Do you think I'm pretty?" I asked softly.

No responce.

Frank's gaze locked on me. I love his eyes they're so beautiful. I nodded and faked a smile for him.

"Do you want me?" I asked again. Why was I asking him this? It was like I had no control over my actions. I felt my heart break when he didn't answer again. I think I broke him. I frowned slightly as tears swelled up in my eyes.

"Am I nothing to you?" I whispered painfully. Frank blinked and sighed heavily. He shook his head which made my entire life shatter before my eyes. I nodded and got up. I was about to exit the bus when I felt a hot hand wrap around my tiny wrist. I sniffled and looked back at him. My heart was racing and my plams were a bit clamy. I didn't want to hear what he had to say. I didn't. That's it! I'm done with life, it's shit. I watched Frank for a long moment his short black hair exposed his eyes and face. The face that was posted up on my wall like eight times. I saw it every night when I went to bed. Frank shook his head.

"You're not pretty, you're drop dead beautiful." He said making my heart throb slightly. The tears suddenly stopped.

"I don't want you, I need you." He added happily. I felt a smile creep on my face. My heart began to beat faster as the butterflies flew around my stomach.

"And you mean the world to me." He said. I felt something inside me, something I've never felt before. It was love.

"Don't walk away, you can run away with me; any time you want." He whispered. I blushed as a smile grew on my face.

I don't know how it happened but I was kissing him again and this time, it was willing. And I loved every damn second of it. I mean who wouldn't want to kiss this adorable man. He is down to earth, good natured and just a plain BAMF. I know that this is what I want but something in my gut said I shouldn't trust him, but the feeling inside said I should. I pulled away happily and sighed, my head hung down.

"It's a little bit funny this feeling inside." I whispered softly, I was quoting my favorite movie, Moulin Rouge. He wants to be with her because he doesn't know what love is like and she wants be with him because she knows what false love is like. I guess it's role reversal. I'm Cristain and he's Sataine or the sparkling diamond. He sings this song to her when he's trying to tell her he loves her.

"I hope you don't mind, I hope you don't mind that I put down in words." Frank whispered softly. He knew the song I'm thinking about. Lets see if he knew the last part.

"How wonderful life is, now you're in the world." We both said. This is amazing. This man is amazing. Period.

"Kat?" I heard Frank's voice ask softly. My heart beated a bot faster and there was an obvious kick in my belly. I turned to see his beautiful hazel eyes glimmering down at me.

"Yes?" I asked softly, my voice apparent and board like it usually is. Frank stood by the exit of the pool. A smile played my lips happily.

"Can I be alone with you?" He asked. I smiled with a heating beginning in my face. I nod then got up. I got this fluttering feeling that told me not to go but I love him and I need to know what he has on his mind.