My Feelings Book

Oh God - GUILTY ASF 10/4/16

Help!! Its really awkward between me and my aunty now. I've been feeling... Strange. All evening. She wouldn't let her kids come to my cousins birthday, even though she was my auntys kids' cousin too. I texted her and said what I had to say to make her change my mind. She said 'They were happy doing their own thing' so I facetimed them and they said that they wanted to come. I messages her, saying: 'Come on, there's gonna be an amazing treasure hunt and we have presents for Aleka (her youngest daughter. Her birthday was also recently) and Eve (the birthday girl's mum) is really pissed off and just celebrate Lily's birthday and at least ACT like you actually care' and she told my mum that she was offended by my 'hateful' message and my mum thought I was swearing and I told her I wasn't, and... Its really confusing. Sorry, you're probably all muddled up. Now I feel super guilty, I just has to get of off my chest. I feel like I ruined our perfectly fine relationship. I did tell her that I didn't mean it and I said what I had to say to get her to let them come, and hey, look, it did work, right? But I don't think it really fixed anything. HELP!! I'm too nervous to see her ever again and I'm just too guilty. 😢