Shawn Mendes Imagines

Give me a reason to stay

Y/N's P.O.V.

It's been a year since Shawn and I broke up, a year since I walked away. It was all getting too much for me. Shawn was getting more recognized in the music industry, he was gaining more fans, going on world tours, selling out venues worldwide, he was gone all the time and I just couldn't keep up. I was holding him back from his dreams and I couldn't continue to be a burden on his success. He's been doing well without me, making his fans happy and extremely proud of his accomplishments. I've been watching his journey from afar back home, and I couldn't be more happy for him. However I've been feeling down, I always regret what i did and wish I could take it all back, but Shawn's happy and that's all that matters.

I haven't heard from him in a while, but I can't really blame him for ignoring me, after all I did break up with him after he told me about his first tour. He was so excited when he told me the good news, but I was too caught up in my own world to realize that I was being selfish. I didn't want him to go on tour because I thought that he'd become some fame-obsessed celebrity, but in reality I just didn't want him to leave me. I didn't want Shawn to come home from tour one day and break my heart, I didn't focus on what he wanted to do and I didn't trust his loyalty to me. I was being selfish for holding him back, Shawn wanted to make things work, but I was too focused on what I wanted and not what he wanted.

Shawn had finished his world tour a few days ago and was back home in Pickering. I on the other hand was sitting in my bedroom alone watching Grey's Anatomy on Netflix, and eating a fruit salad. Half way through the episode, I heard my phone ringing which was quite confusing since it was almost 10:00 pm. I picked up my phone and was shocked to see who was calling. Would he actually call me?

I nervously picked up my phone and pressed the green answer button.

"H-hello" I said shakily

"Is this all worth it? Is life worth it? I'm stuck in a war between my thoughts and feelings, I can't function with what's going on. I have everything I ever wanted, the fans, the dream, the success, but why am I not happy? Why am I missing the one thing that I need in order to live through this war? Why can't I just deal with the fact that I don't have you in my arms, and probably will never be able to have your beautiful presence near me ever again? Why do I keep asking myself these 'why' questions and do nothing to heal this hole and empty void in my heart? Tell me Y/N, why won't you love me as much as I love you? Why can't you see that I'll do everything and anything to make you the happiest person ever? Why can't you see that you're my everything, and without you I'm nothing? And why can't you see that my love for you is larger than the galaxy, and stronger than the pull of gravity? I've been traveling through down under and back up, over and over again. T-tell me that I should have some faith and not do something more stupid then what I'm thinking right now." He said speedily, sounded as if he was crying.

Never would I have thought that Shawn felt that strongly about me. He sounded so broken and hurt. I was the one who hurt him... I put him through all that pain thinking that it was for his own good, but it wasn't. 

"S-Shawn... I'm so sorry for putting you through all that, I-I didn't know that you felt this way..."

"I-I don't know what to do, I can't help but feel like I've ruined everything. I feel depressed all the t-time and I can't deal with all of this a-anymore. Y/N, give me a reason to stay. Give me a reason as to why I s-shouldn't jump off this building right now and end my misery." 

I couldn't believe that Shawn would be saying all of this. The love of my life was telling me that he was going to jump. That he was going to end his life because of my stupid mistakes. 

"S-Shawn, don't do this. I love you more than anything, I've just been too selfish and blind to realize how much you really mean to me. I've taken you for granted, and I'm sorry. I need you more than anything, without you I'm just a lost soul. You're my oxygen, my heart and soul, and the love of my life. Please please please, stay with me because I need you more than the life on earth needs the sun."

"I'm sorry"

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Hey guys, it's been a while since I've updated, but I've been working on a few imagines. THANK YOU guys so much for over 700 reads and over 140 followers, it means so much to me! I hope that you guys enjoyed this imagine, and thank you all once again!

-Georgia 

05/13/16