Shizaya texts (Izaya and Shizuo)

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Shizuo's POV

"Him?" I asked him completely shocked. What the hell?! This can't be right! Maybe he is playing a joke on me.. I mean.. He can't like a guy... Or can he..?

WHAT? Of course not! He is not gay, Shizuo!

"I-I... I no" he breathed out in a fast pace while blushing furiously. I no? What the fuck does that mean? He cleared his throat "I-I mean... I'm not gay. You stupid Shizu-chan" how can he stutter and then insult me just like that?

"Then who is she?" I asked and I mentally slapped my self 'cause that came out sounding completely desperate (again)

"Why should I tell you that..?"

"Because.. Maybe I'll tell you the one I like too.." The moment those words flew out of my mouth I instantly regretted saying them. Shit. I just hope he doesn't agree..

He seemed kind of skeptical

Please say no

Please say no

Please say-

"Let's say it together" my eyes widened. Let's do what?! Nononononono.NO! I can't do that! He is going to be completely disgusted at me and probably won't ever speak to me again! I just can't say it!

"What.. What do you say?" He said with bright red cheeks and I looked away "Are you perhaps chickening out on your own words?" He raised an eyebrow and I rolled my eyes

"Of course not... Let's... Let's just get this over with..." I sighed. I guess there's no getting out of this now...

"Ok... 3.." A couple of seconds passed by, but he didn't say anything else. He looked at me expectantly

"What?!"

"Aren't you going to say 2..?" Ohhh so that's where he was getting at.. I can't believe I'm doing this...

"2"

"1.."

Oh well. This is the end

It was nice living..

I shut my eyes closed tightly and I let my instincts take over. Thus, I didn't even realize that that name came out of my mouth...

Maybe because it wasn't the name I wanted to say or because he said the same thing but at that moment time froze up

"Anri" "Anri" Was what we both said at the same time and I could literally feel a knife stabbing me in the stomach.

I felt tears starting to form in my eyes and when I looked into his eyes he seemed about to cry too. So does he think of me as a love rival now? Or does he feel bad for me? That fucking- Shit. Why am I blaming him?! It was my fucking fault. All of it.. And did I really have to say Anri out of all people?! Now he's going to hate me even more! ....This is too depressing.
Fuck my life. Seriously.

"You..." He started but then shook his head and wiped his watery eyes. He grabbed his phone and called someone
"Shinra you fucking asshole! Is this what you were planning?! Are you happy now?!"

"Wow, calm down, what are you saying?" I could faintly hear Shinra on the other end of the line

"Just fucking get me out of here or I'll either start fucking sobbing or kill that fuck"

...so she means that much to him, huh?...

He hung up and threw his phone to the ground. He then turned to me. I mentally prepared myself knowing that what he was about to say right then was just going to hurt me even more. "You fu-.. No, you know what? I don't care, ok? I don't fucking care! So go even fuck her if you want. I really don't care. I don't care."

"You said that four times..."

"I DON'T CARE!" He yelled and a tear left his eyes

At that moment Shinra came unlocking the door and as soon as he did, Izaya run out of the room without looking back even once.

"What-" he stopped talking when his eyes landed on me "SHIZUO ARE YOU FREAKING CRYING?!" I turned my head away from him with a miserable laugh "what the ef happened here?! You never cry, Shizuo! Plus, Izaya seemed really upset too"

"Shinra... Everything is just... so fucked up.."

"..wanna talk about it?" I shook my head

"No.. Not yet at least" I said and got up

"Bye" I heard Shinra say just before I closed the door and I gave him a nod
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"Shizuo! SHIZUO" I heard banging on the door. Will he just shut up already?! He's been doing this for like ten minutes.. my head hurts..

"SHIZUO! Open the dooorrrrr" that damn mad scientist. I cursed under my breath as I got to my feet and headed to the door

"Shi-" I looked at him dead in the eye "oh you opened. Wow. You look like a mess"

"Thanks" I said and was about to close the door at him when he quickly stopped me from doing so with his leg

"Wait soIwasthinkingoftalkimgyouwithmeandtheguystoaclub?soyoucanfeelbettery'know" he rushed out in one breath

"The guys?" I raised my eyebrows

"You know... Some friends of mine from...college" he said and before I could protest he continued "c'mon plzzzz you need to get some fresh air!!! You've been locked in here for like three days!" I rolled my eyes at him

"I don't give a fuck. Just leave me alone"

"C'monnn" he pouted "you'll have fun!! I promiseee"

I rolled my eyes again "I'm not in the mood Shinra.."

"Okay, sorry..." He signed and turned around. "That I have to do this" he added while he snapped my phone from my grip and started running towards his car

"From Flea; No. Plz don't talk to me.." He started reading out loud while he was running and my eyes turned wide

"DON'T FUCKING READ MY TEXTS!!"

I chased him into his car but it turned out to be a trap because as soon as I got inside, he locked the doors and started driving with a grin plastered all over his fucking face

"I won" he said smugly and I mentally prepared myself for the unwanted night ahead

SORRY IT TOOK ME SO LONG TO UPDATE I REALLY AM THE WORST   T.T  .....ly? :3