Naive (Harry Styles Fanfic)

Chapter 16 "Hey you"

After the camping I’ve been feeling like the only place I could feel safe was at my bed. I’ve been trying to cover myself in the sheets and not going further than the bathroom. When Harry said those words I couldn’t help but feel useless and used at the same time as weird as it sounds. I thought he liked me, well, one thing was reality and another thing was what I thought, right? Anyways, it seems like everything has to happen to me. Like life doesn’t want me to be happy.

This all sucked. I haven’t talked to anyone since we came back. Mark has been trying to speak to me but I couldn’t. I turned off my phone, what did they want me to say? That I was ok? Well I’m not! That everything’s gonna be ok? Well, I doubt it!! I’ve always hated those words, what are you supposed to say when you can’t make it better? Things were already done, you can’t change anything! This is not gonna make me feel better, instead it would remind me again what happened and I don’t want that! I want to move on! I want to forget the mistake I made, and totally forget about Harry and his stupid ego and pride. He’s done for me, but you know…? As much as I want that to happen I can’t, he’s in my mind 24/7. Even in my dreams! How can someone heal from this disease?

I heard someone knocked the door and I sighed.

“Mark, I already told you! I don’t want to speak!”

“I’m not Mark, I’m your sister and I can’t see you like this anymore”

“Loo, Sam, I don’t want to fight with ok?”

“I don’t care, you can waste your life like this. Look at you, you look like crap!”

“Like I’d been looked better before anyways” I said hiding my face under the covers. I felt her weight next to me and I figured he sat next to me.

“Leah… came on! You can’t be like this for a boy!”

“You don’t know how I feel. You’re always the one that is done with all the boys, not the boys with you” she sighed and rested her body next to me.

“Because you have to be tough with them, you know…? I’m afraid of falling in love because of our parents, you know? But I still have this hope love is out there somewhere and they’re going to find the love they need so that their spark could light up. And so I believe in you. I know there is a real Leah out there, you’re much stronger than you think you are, and more scared, as you seem sometimes. But you have to believe in you, Leah. You have to tell yourself that you can’t be like this for a boy. He has to be like this for you. Don’t let your life be like a complete hell just because of a guy, life is full of surprises, challenges that we have to take, sometimes we have to risk, and sometimes we have to change a little bit ourselves to suit to the circumstances. And you know… I’ll be here if you want to take the next step and fight for you not for him. I’m your sister, remember?” I looked at her and was surprised at how amazing my sister was. How could someone smaller than me be wiser than me? She was right! I can’t be in bed forever because some guy that maybe is hooking up with someone right now. He has to watch me and see what he’s lost. I’m not going to give him the pleasure to say that I was just another one from his list. Oh no, I was going to be the one that he desires, the one that he falls of, but the one that never would love him back.

“Thank you” I said smiling at her. “I really love you, you know?” she giggled and placed a kiss on my cheek. Then she stood up and went to the door.

“I’m glad I helped you”

“Wait Sam, I… I think I would need a little bit of your help”

“For what?”

“You’ll see, you want to help me out or not?”

“Sure!” she said and came back to me.

***** Leah's outfit on the right.