Nothing Stays The Same (Sam Pottorff: Book 3)

Chapter 21~~How Could I Let It Go This Far?

Bella's POV

Aria and I have talked all night long. We finally decided that I needed to tell Sam as soon as possible. So today, I'm gonna tell Sam that I remember him.

But I also need to tell Jc. I just don't know who to tell first. If I tell Jc first, then I'm afraid he's gonna break up with me because I have a feeling that all along he didn't want me to remember Sam. But if I tell Sam first, then maybe it'll make me realize that I want Jc and not Sam.

But that's the problem. I don't know if I want Sam or Jc.

With Jc, I can start fresh. I love Jc and he hasn't hurt me at all so I really like our relationship. With Sam, we have a past. We've been through so much and if I choose Jc, then I'm throwing it all away. I'm not sure if I wanna forget Sam all over again.

"BELLA!" Aria yelled from downstairs.

"WHAT?!?" I yelled back.

"GET READY! I'M DRIVING YOU TO SAM'S HOUSE IN AN HOUR!" Aria said.

I sighed. I need to tell him, I told myself over and over again. I got up and took a quick shower. I blow dried my hair and fish tailed it. I slipped on a loose sea green button up shirt, white shorts, and a brown belt. I put on brown flip flops and went to the bathroom to apply my makeup. I only put on mascara and chap-stick. I wasn't really in the mood for looking drop dead gorgeous today.

Wow, I just sounded really full of myself. 

"BELLA! GET DOWN HERE! WE GOTTA GO!" Aria shouted.

I rolled my eyes and then I ran downstairs and walked outside. Aria is only driving me because she doesn't want me to back out of telling Sam. I think she wants this relationship to happen more than I do.

It takes 3 minutes to drive to Sam's house. I was scared as f**k but I knew I had to do this. Maybe he moved on. If he did, it would make this all so much easier. But then again, it'd also make it really awkward.

Aria pulled up into his driveway and turned off the car. "You ready?"

"No."

"Bella, c'mon. Just knock on the door and talk to Sam for a little bit."

"I'm scared." I whined.

"There's nothing to be scared of. He's the guy you fell in love with. You don't need to be scared." Aria said.

"But I have Jc now. I don't love Sam."

Aria looked down and mumbled something that I couldn't hear. Then she looked back up at me. "There's always gonna be some part of you that loves Sam. Go in there and find that part of you."

And with that, I got out of the car and walked to his front door. I looked back at Aria nervously and I realized that she wasn't gonna leave until I was in the house. I took a deep breath and then I rang the doorbell.

I heard footsteps and then the door opened. Aria backed out of the driveway and drove back the way we came.

"Bella?" Sam's mom said when she opened the door.

"Hi Mrs. Pottorff." I greeted.

"Hello Bella! I've missed you so much!" she said and she pulled me into a warm hug. I hugged back. I guess Sam didn't tell her that I had lost my memory. "How have you been? You look so gorgeous!"

"Thanks. I've been good." I said. "Is Sam here?"

"Oh, yes. He's right upstairs in his room. Go on up." she said sweetly and I skipped up the steps to Sam's room.