COLD HEART ⌲ MYG + JHS ✔

never

that night
i just lay on my bed
staring at the ceiling
with a mixture of feelings.

i was happy
min yoongi said
he liked me.

i was sad
that my chest
felt so empty.

i was angry
that my chest
felt so empty.

i was disappointed
that min yoongi
was not with me.

normally, at this time
i would be at the park.
but today, im not.
i want to see
min yoongi.
but i don't want to
see him like this.

not when
no words want
to leave my mouth.
not when
my legs
don't want to work.
not when
my brain
tells me
to die.