angst shots ; chanbaek

Different

"Yeollie I love you. . ."

"What?!"

"I said I love you. . ."

"Just gross, Baek. I'm a guy. You know it's wrong to fall in love with the same gender."

"But I can't stop myself from loving you. . ."

"Why am I even your friend? I hate you."

He says, his words filled with venom. I feel the tears threatening to flow down but I held them in.

"I don't want to see you. Ever again."

He says before leaving me like trash at the beach.

I tremble down to the sand, crying harshly.

I knew this would happen. .

I looked to my side, my vision blurry.

The water looks inviting. .

I stand up, ignoring the pain I'm feeling in my heart.

I start walking towards the water, a sad smile slowly forming.

I start to feel the cold water touch my feet.

I smile a bit wider.

The water starts rising, the waves getting stronger and stronger.

Beautiful. . .

The cold water reaches my chest, I continue walking.

I then dive into the water, the saltiness reaching my eyes.

I ignore it though, the pain is beautiful.

I start to drown, but that's what I want.

That's what he wants right?

Me gone.

I whisper those three words before I feel myself slowly fading away.

"I lo-love you, Ch-chanyeol. . ."

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