Outsider {A Kendrick Lamar Story}

Day 7

October 18,2013
Kendrick/6:37a.m/Andrea house
Yea y'all know how I ran out that hospital well I got a plan and the first part of the plan is to get back into the gang but I damn sure wasn't hard at all, my niggas know I couldn't do shit about it and they needed more people

I got back in the game because I
needed my team back I'm so lonely now and I can't pay these bills and stuff with a job , I'm not exactly McDonald's material, I got a new gun and all the shit I need
I told the crew about the plan the other day they said they was down because they all had history with her ( as a friend/sister)


I lay in the bed with my eyes open like this all the time just thinking and thinking. about what? shitttt life. how

I treated her, how I made her feel, and how she still took me in when I needed it the most. why? why would she still take me in after all of that and I didn't give an apology not even a suck ass one, man I didn't even say thank you. mama Lamar would have kicked my ass if she knew what I did to this girl, and if she never wake up, what about me what about her. ill never get answers or this one thing off my chest
I'm in love
In love with her




Nicole/8:00a.m/ outside
I run when I'm uneasy. every since Marie made me do that to dre ... yea it was me, I didn't mean to do well I meant to but I didn't want to I promise I'm not a monster.
" I'm not a monster
I'm not a monster "
I try to tell myself that every now and again
I haven't been sleeping too well only 4 hours a night
I know I won't be able to take this much longer

I can't do anything but pray
Pray for dre
Pray for ken
And pray that somebody does somethin bout that hoe Marie
Pray







Sorry about the delay high school is kicking my butt and report cards come out this week so I might get my stuff takin so just trying to write and publish as much as I can