Haste In The Moment - Jaspar AU

6. Denying Love

Caspar P.O.V

I don't know what's happening anymore. Joe has left. I can't tell if he was being sarcastic before when he said he wasn't staying away forever. I really don't know what i'd do though if Joe wasn't by my side. I don't know how i lived, them days when i didn't know him, and he was just 'Zoellas brother'. He means so much to me now, I can't bare to lose him.

So why am I sat on the sofa not doing anything about it?

Thats it. I know he's gone Zoe's, so tomorrow I'm going to go up to her house in Brighton and put things right. 

I finish my game of Fifa and start packing a few clothes, not really knowing what i'm going to be doing tomorrow. Will Zoe even let me in. Joe will definitely tell her what's happened, she might just ignore me and shut the door on my face. That's not the first time that's happened. 

Then again, I don't know what I'm going to say to Joe. Hell i don't even know what I'm feeling right now. Everything with Gaby must've proved something to myself. I didn't love her. I loved Joe. I love Joe. Joe Sugg. I really do. Now I've admitted it to myself. Should i admit to to Joe though? He'll probably think it's a joke, or I'm playing him after what happened before. I'm really not though. God i hate my life.

I decide to call Oli. He always has the best advice.

On the third ring, he picks up the phone.

"Hello? Caspar? Let me guess, this is about Joe" he says, sighing down the receiving end. I chuckle slightly. He knows me too well.

"I need advice" I say.

"Well I'm no childline or social group leader but go on, I'm all ears" He says, waiting for me to reply.

"Well, Joe's gone Zoe's-" He cuts me off abruptly.

"Wait how did you know?" he says hastily.

"He came home to get his stuff?" I say confused, "Wait did you know?"

"Course I knew, he came to me. Anyway carry on" he says, I just sigh before carrying on, like he said.

"Well, Joe's gone Zoe's" I say, repeating myself, "and I need to talk to him urgently. So do you think i should go up to Brighton and talk to him?"

"Do you think it's a good idea? I mean, he obviously went there to get away from you, no offence. Turning up on his sisters doorstep and demanding to speak to him might not go down as well as you've got planned" Oli says. I know he's right, but i really do need to speak to Joe and tell him how i feel. He doesn't even know about Gaby yet.

"Oli I'm not going to demand to see him. I'm going to ask-" he cuts me off again.

"You do know he's going to tell Zoe whats happened don't you? If it's as bad as you're both making out then i doubt Zoe is going to let you in a 100 meter radius of her home"he says. Well that's good. He doesn't know whats happened.

"Yeah thanks Einstein. I think i can figure that one out for myself" I say sarcastically down the line.

"Just saying" he says in a surrendering tone, "I don't even get why this is such a big deal Caspar. You and Joe are legit like twins. You go everywhere with eachother. You're best friends for christ sake! You make me look like I'm third wheeling a power couple half of the time. Surely you can sort this out" Oli rants. I just sigh. He doesn't know the half of it.

"Look it's bad, anyway, I'm gonna go man, gotta pack" I say.

"Alright man, just don't worry okay? It'll all sort itself out yeah? You'll probably be even closer than before, you never know" he said. What did he mean by 'be even closer than before'?

"Yeah, innabit" I say, still confused.

"See you later" he says, before hanging up the phone. What if Oli did know something? What if Joe had told him? I'm so confused right now.

A/N I MAY OF UPDATED REALLY EARLY BUT I'M SO SORRY IT'S A SHORT CHAPTER. I'M STARTING A NEW FIC CALLED 'TEXT BUDDIES' AND I'D APPRECIATE IT LOADS IF YOU'D CHECK IT OUT FOR ME. DON'T WORRY THOUGH, THIS ONE WILL STILL BE CARRYING ON AS NORMAL, MAYBE JUST SHORTER CHAPTERS OR IDK. ALSO, IF YOUR A LARRY FAN, MAKE SURE TO CHECK MY BRAND NEW STORY 'Not How I Remember It'. THANKS GUYSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

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