Seperate Myself

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Najah

My eyes fluttered open, a headache immediately came threw.

First thing my eyes laid on was L'a bracelets that were around my wrist.

(a/n I can't remember what they are called but those the bracelets)

I sat up groaning leaning my head up against the head bored. I sighed, I grabbed the remote.

"Yesterday Leonard Anderson also known as L'a capone was shot an kil-" I cutt the TV off.

I laid back down, as sobbs filled my room. My mom came in my room getting in the bed with me. Holding me...

"Why?" I cried

"I don't know" she shook her head

Rondo

"Nine u need anything? "My og asked coming to my door way

"Can u shut my door?" I asked my voice came out raspy.

"Yeah" she sighed closing the door. I sat at the end of my bed, I just sat there and thought.

A tear fell down my face, before I broke out crying. I only cry real nigga tears.

They took L'a man, that was my brother how ima get through this shit. All I know is shit not gone be the same at all.

This shit hurt, them goofy ass niggas gotta pay..

Cdai

"This shit is crazy man" edai put his face in his hands.

"G ion even know how to move. Like what's everybody next move u can't just come back from no shit like this" dot said

"I already know my next move" I said

"What that is?" Edai asked

"Them niggas gotta pay g" I shook my heads they just got quiet.

I laid down I hit my bed 2 times before stuffing my face in the pillow.

I fucking hate this shit

Tay

"Tay how u feeling?" My og asked

"How u think I feel I just lost my brother?" I asked

"I know.." she said quietly

"You just gotta be patient everything will fall in place" she said

I shook my head, she sighed walking out closing. My door.. I grabbed my computer playing L'a mixtape.

How ima go to my brother funeral tomorrow.  We was just talking bout getting on now they saying he gone.

This some bullshit..

Gotti

"U cool? " my cousin asked I nodded

"I Just Wanna Be alone" I Sniffed. She nodded closing the door.

My fucking heart hurt g, all he was tryna do was separate himself. 

And they pulled him right back in the bullshit.

I pulled my hair, he was so happy to be a daddy. I know najah can't raise that baby by herself..

Armani

"This some crazy shit" I cried to myself. When I seen bro body drop..you don't understand.

I rolled up a thoink as I replayed his last words over and over again in my head..

Mainee.

Jb bin Laden

"You okay?" My shorty asked hugging me. "Yeah leave me alone for a minute iight?" I asked walked out the room..Ion want her to see me cry like this. I grew up with that nigga how ima go from seeing that nigga everyday to not seeing him no more.

Ion know if I can go to his funeral tomorrow I just don't even know no more. This shit the same cycle...

Pinky

"Mommy you okay?" I peeked into her room.

She nodded, "yeah go check on baybay for me she tried to hide the fact that she was crying..

I walked in Bay bay room. She was sound asleep, I twisted my big sisters door it was locked. They both locked there self in they room.

I went to L'a room, as my eyes welled up with tears.

One slid down my face, "I hate chicago" I mumbled to myself..

I sat on his bed observing his room. I seen something shiny on his dresser like a chain or something so I got up..

I grabbed it, it was a chain that said L'a and under it said jr. I frowned

"Ima be a daddy" he said all happy

"Okay u geeking gone get out my room" I said rolling my eyes

"Lil girl shut up I'm to hype tho bet it's gone be a jr" he said

"Okay la" I said laughing lightly

This Lil boy crazy

I shook the memory off, I grabbed it taking it to my room.  Laying down in my room.

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I Apologize To yall wattpad Getting On My Nerves Keep fucking My Shit Up.

Probably like 5 or 10 more chapters don't know yet.