It's been eight years.
Eight years ago, my life changed completely. I moved away from everyone I loved and followed a whimsical dream. Eight years ago, I had a horrific accident that nearly killed me and made me lose a precious part of my soul. Eight years ago, I destroyed a relationship temporarily for selfish reasons, only to have it blossom even stronger. Eight years ago, I made the decision to walk away from the one person that I trusted with all my heart.
Eight years ago, my life began.
My music career has flourished. All the experiences that I've had have been converted into more and more songs. And the more I delve into my hardest times, the more people seem to love them. The positive response I've had from fans is incredible. All the pain that I've felt is shared by them, and they use my music to help them through hard times. It's just a blessing to know that I'm helping people through my words.
I'm not a mainstream artist. That's fine with me. I much prefer being that underdog that people happen to stumble across on YouTube and fall in love with. I think that's better than having everyone know your name. I can walk down the street without being stopped most days. I like that. I've never been big-headed, so popularity was never what I aimed for in this whole thing.
I haven't toured yet either. That's my one big fear. As much as my confidence has grown, I still haven't got enough to expose myself directly to the public. Yes. Eight years without a tour seems shitty. But every time I'm asked in interviews, I tell them the truth. I don't bullshit with anyone. I tell them I'm scared. And they understand. Sure, I get the odd backlash, but that's to be expected. But a tour isn't something that has felt right yet. And I don't want to do anything that doesn't feel right.
But something big has happened for me. Something that will put me more in the public light than I have ever been before.
I have just been asked to be a judge on a new television programme. One similar to The X Factor. But there's something much different about it. It's called The Voice UK.
From what I understand, we don't see the people who audition. We have to sit and listen to them with our backs turned. I love that. So many things nowadays are based on appearance. It makes me sick. This show will give us a chance to hear those people that are too nervous because they are self-conscious. People who think they aren't good enough because of the way they look, when actually they are beautiful. People who have succumb to the modern system of 'if you aren't stereotypically beautiful, then you won't get anywhere in life'. In other words, I get to find someone like me. And I can't fucking wait.
I'm going to be one of four judges. And, to be honest, I'm possibly the least known out of all of them. Which is fine by me. I have my own personality that I guess people will either love or hate. And just because I'm less mainstream, it doesn't mean I'm going to act all shy and nervous. Oh no. I'm going to be myself. Going to fight to get the people I want on my team. Yep. I've gotten a little more feisty in these last eight years. Time to show the world who I am.
The other judges are a lot more popular. Probably will make them more popular with the public, but that doesn't bother me. If that's the way the show would go, then I wouldn't want to be a part of it. But I have a feeling that it won't be. And the others seem pretty cool anyway.
Will.i.am is the first one. Oh my God, I am extremely excited to meet this guy. I mean, I've listened to his music for the longest time. He's just a legend. I have a feeling I will be completely starstruck around him. May be a little awkward...but pah!
The next is Tom Jones. I just...there's no words to describe the excitement to be a part of something with him. He is Wales' best singer, like ever. Everyone knows who he is. It's just...what? How did this happen to me? Excited? Yes. Yes I am.
The last judge...well this is the one I'm slightly worried about to be honest. Not because of anything that I've heard about the guy, or because I dislike him or anything. It's just the emotional connection I have with...well...everything to do with him I suppose.
His name is Danny O'Donoghue. And he's the lead singer of a band called The Script.
I'm sure you now appreciate my concerns. And I've probably now peaked your interest in that element to my life. So, yes, I shall indulge.
Me and Glen have never really gotten over what happened. I mean, we talk. How could we not? We were a massive part of each other's life. It would just be weird not to ever talk to each other again. But it isn't the same. We've never met up, it's always a quick Skype call, mostly with Mark there to break the ice. No matter how hard we try, that thing we used to have isn't there any more. It's a shame. We were an amazing pair, even when we weren't together. I suppose this is a part of growing up, isn't it? Drifting away from those who you once count as the most important in your life...
But he keeps me updated. He lets me know about all of his adventures with the boys, and all the tours that they do. He's happy. He's really happy. And I guess that's what keeps me going. I know that my decision eight years ago was the right one. No matter how much it hurt at the time.
And the question I can feel burning from all of you is 'do you know how you feel yet?' Well, yes. Yes I do.
I am not in love with Glen Power.
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A/N - Heyyyy guys! It's finally started! The third part of the Glen/Emie saga! I didn't really know what to call it, so I just called it the trilogy part of the story. And I'm sorry if this was a boring chapter, but you know. It's the prologue, and setting the scene for the rest of the story. Also, I didn't want to have five judges and needed to cut someone out, so I got rid of Jessie. Mostly because I wanted Emie to be the only female in the group. No disrespect to Jessie, it's just what I needed to be done. I'm a little worried with this story after the amazing response from you all about Dead Man Walking. Not sure this will compare at all! Ha! But there you go. This story needs an ending, and I'm sure as hell going to do it! Let me know what you're expecting from this book, or what you think, or you know, anything! Thank you all for reading! Vote, comment, do your thing. Much love x
