The Looking Glass - Glenn Rhee

7 - I'm Gonna Love You Forever

It may happen. These awful feelings won't fade with time or isolation but will settle under the hate of the aftermath. Beauty grows from dead things because beauty will always trump the darkness. Death.

I drug my staff onto the bus. So incredibly scared... for them. For Glenn but maybe this would be better. Let heartbreak come so I can go. It wasn't really meant to happen anyhow. I fell for somebody taken. I was raised better than to interfere with such a thing as marriage. Maybe I'm not scared. I'm just already heartbroken? Get a head start Lucy, get a head start and maybe you'll survive.

"Wait with John, Lucile. I'll need you later." Negan said shutting the camper door behind him. He promised he wouldn't do anything till tonight. That'll give me some time. I waited till John was distracted and I slipped away.

Again. I run. Run so fast my feet hurt from stomping the ground but the faster I go the more time I have to get him out. I swung my staff sideways and smacked the thing across the face knocking it down. It grabbed out for me but I left it simply growling.

I made it through the clearing and attached my fingers around the wood and climbed up. Before I dropped a scoped hoping to see Glenn nearby and of course I couldn't see him. I dropped and went straight for his home. I peered through the window and saw Maggie sitting with Enid behind her. Where to go next? I didn't want anyone knowing I was here but I needed to find Glenn. I turned and saw Rick walk out his door and down his steps.

"Lucile." He greeted. Obviously still mad with me.

"Have you seen Glenn?"

"He left with Michonne to catch up with Daryl. East from the first right past the blue house." he replied and without letting me thank him he walked away. I took a deep breath and started his way.

-

"You'll be alright." I heard after a gunshot flared into Daryl's shoulder. "I wondered where you went off to. You know Negan's not going to be happy with you." John smiled and tied my hands. He picked up my staff and slammed it over his knee breaking it in two.

-

I watched as they lined my friends up. Glenn begged for them to keep their hands off of Maggie. Was I even on his mind? Wait. No! stop this. It's not about you right now. You had to keep him safe Lucile. My wasn't right. Wasn't working like it should.

"It's a policy." Negan shrugged "I'm going to beat the holy hell out of one of you. But!" he turned to the van and called for me. Glenn was the only one who knew. They're going to hate me.

I stepped down and met with Rick. Negan swung his arm around my shoulders and introduced me. He didn't know the other way around.

"My sister ladies and gentlemen. Lucile." and then he had said it. The thing I wish he would have kept to himself. "Pick." he handed me his bat. His job he passed to me with a smirk splayed across his face. "Pick which ever one you want."

Loyalty played over and over in my mind. Loyalty was the one thing  loved to keep and tonight I had to drop it. Drop everything I stood for. Forbidden love or family? dramatics set in and I got hysteric. My breathing quickened and my vision blurred from the sweat off my forehead. I looked Glenn in the eyes and I saw betrayal. Hurt beyond anything I could imagine and I looked to my brother. Confidence.

Rage began to well up in my chest and and sadness washed over me. I did the one thing my gut was against. I swung. I chose my victim and swung so hard I was splattered with blood as Negan fell. His head crushed under the wight of the bat. One blow had taken him out and all you had to do was gain his trust.

Loyalty sides with beauty and honesty and goodness. Blood means nothing. It never has and never will. I looked up to the crowd my brother built and it had been the rule from the beginning that he who kills the leader becomes the leader and here I stand.

"Tonight." I speak to all who stares "A new story begins under the hand me!" I order for them to untie my friends and the more loyal ones to tie Negan's goons.

"Tonight," I stare straight into John's eyes "Justice for the good."