The Forbidden Affair (SSB#4)

Chapter 3

Chapter 3 "Bad"

Why does this day feel so different? Masyadong mabigat ang araw na 'to para sa akin. I know they're hiding something from me. And I'll find it my ways. I had this feeling that something is going on. 

Ininom ko ang alak na nasa harapan ko. People were screaming so loud and the music got more wild. And my vision was dancing before I could even move.

"I'm fucked up..." I mumbled as I tried to focus my vision on the guy next to my place. Even if it's too dark here, I can tell the liquor got its way to my brain. I don't think they mind me sleeping here for tonight. I don't want to get myself in trouble. I don't have car and it's safer if I'll stay here overnight and leave when I'm sober.

Pumangalumbaba ako at pinagmamasdan lang si Raeb. Bukas ang dalawang butones ng suot nito kaya sa bawat pag-abot nito ng inumin sa mga taong nasa harap niya ay sumisilay ang dibdib nito.

"Macallan, Raeb!" I said increasing my voice so he can definitely hear it.

"You okay?" he asked. His eyes never made me feel so uncomfortable instead it made me feel so safe. Kailan na nga ba kami huling nag-usap? Last three months? He once courted me but because I'm so dumb I declined him for how many times for the reason that me, myself, can't understand. Ang lola niyo nabihag ng isang lalake. And I don't know when will be the time that  I'm going to get over this guy and allow others to get in and try me.

"I must, right?" I answered as I hand him my unfilled glass.

I saw him yesterday, in Peyn's house, but I did not get the chance to talk to him. My attention flew... on something.

"How are you? Seeing someone?" I added as I watch him filling my glass with my favorite drink to get lost. Life! You're so mean to me!

"I'm fine. You?" he asked me back.

I shrugged, I don't feel like I'm fine right now. I plastered a smile and nodded, "I'm great... really great." In one gulp I felt my entire throat got burned. Wow! I missed this!

"And your--" I stopped him.

"Still the same. Nothing special happened. Neither change." Sagot ko. He knew me and about my family. He's part of my friend list whom I could trust. Aside from the other three where I met in the same place where I grew up, they are the ones who gave me a lot of words of wisdom.

"That's why you're here?" I rolled my eyes. For now, the topic will be an allergen to me. Ayoko munang pag-usapan dahil sumasakit lang ang dibdib ko.

"Drop the topic and just do your job," I answered, annoyed. Tumawa lang siya. Pikon na kung pikon. Tumayo ako roon. I badly needed to shake my head off just so I can get the bad vibes out of my system. This thinking thing won't do me good.

Bago pa ako makaalis roon ay kinuha ko ang hawak na baso ni Raeb na may red wine. I saw him shook his head. I raised my hands on the air and joined the crowd singing out loud. Wala akong kakilala and I don't mind what they're thinking about me joining them. Kesyo feeling close ako or whatever, I don't care! This will be a free night to me. No rules. No whats... No butssss... Just me having a free drinks in this club.  And that... no one can take this night away from me.

"Hey! Hey! Hey!" I sing while jumping up with my heels. I saw two guys joining me on my sides and I screamed with so much enjoyment!

"This is life!" I yelled. No one can hear it anyways, I'm sure. The music was just too wild para marinig pa iyon.

One guy positioned himself on my back and started touching my hips. I keep dancing and didn't even mind the hands. I'm not the rebel-type but I do know how to enjoy life and when to stop.