Here Without You

Chapter 36/ Finale:

Chapter 36

•Harrys POV•

"I'm sorry, Mr. Styles, but there is nothing we can do." The stout balding doctor explains grimly. I clench my teeth to hold back a scream. He can't be dead. Our beautiful first born cannot be gone from my life forever, he can't be. He just cant. I run my hand through my curls once again.

Taylor still sits on her bed, sobbing quietly to herself now, most likely blaming herself for it. I take a deep breath, thank the doctor and walk slowly back to Taylor. Her hair is frizzy and messy from hairpulling and her face is most likely streaming with mascara, if I could see it. She covers it with her hands between her knees. I take a seat next to her and lay a hand on her shoulder. She looks up momentarily before groaning and leaning her body into mine. I rub her shoulder tenderly to relieve tension that we're both swarming with.

"How are you doing?" I mutter, half to myself. Terrible, is my answer.

"Do you really need to ask that?" She mumbles back into my grey shirt. She sounds exhausted and older now, her voice worn and much more aged under sorrow. I leave the silence alone for a little while.

"Why do you think this happened to us, Harry? Is it my fault? Did I do something wrong?" She begins to sob hysterically again, babbling yet releasing no tears. She must be out of tears. I squeeze her tight.

"I-I don't know why, Tay, but it did for a reason. It's for a greater plan, okay? And it's absolutely not your fault, it's no ones fault so don't you dare blame yourself." I coo, stroking my hand down her hair and back. I rock us back and forth in an attempt to comfort her.

"Can you stay here tonight?" She backs up a little so she can look at me in my eyes but I immediately look down. I can't stand to look at her like this. Her crystal eyes are brimmed with tears and with her face splotchy and dried.

"Of course, I wouldn't dare leave you tonight, love." I reply, lying down next to her on the bed. She sighs and cuddles up to me as close as she can. We'll try again and again until we have the beautiful family we wanted, that we've talked about in the middle of the night. The family that we'd pray for a hundred times over. And I will not let her give up or become any less because we lost her first... my first.

The nurse shoots us a look but realizes what room this is and what had just happened to us and leaves. Thankfully. I just want to keep her safe in case anything could possibly pop into her mind and cause her to do something outrageous. I know she's been suicidal before with her self consciousness and all, I just want to make sure she's okay.

"Please don't give up on me ever, okay?" I whisper against her skin. Her expression changes as if I read her mind and blinks slowly. Then nods.

"I wont, Harry. I promise. Just- just promise me we won't give up on having a family.." She responds, our eyes meeting again except this time I don't look away. I don't show doubt.

"T, I want to grow old with you and have as many children as you want, I want to have a family with you. Whatever you want, I want. And I want you and your love. I love you so much and I always will." I breathe, my focus only on her. A small, tiny smile slightly turns at her lips.

"I love you so much more." She whispers back. I grin back and press my lips into the back of her cheekbone near her ear softly. Maybe we won't be over this now but together, we'll get over this. But not without eachother. Not here without you...

•• A/n••

GUYS,
it's over. it's officially over and I hate it to be over but I have to end it here. I honestly don't want to but this is literally a good stopping point. This is probably my favorite fanfic to write and I hope y'all liked it to read. By the way, thank you so so much for reading and definitely all 10k of y'all. I'll definitely have more fanfics to come very soon. Love y'all!

~Brooke