She gets Insecure.
"GUYS, IM ORDERING PIZZA . WHAT DO YOU WANT." Momma Ally screams from the kitchen, ordering out dinner.
"Baby, what pizza do you want to order." I ask my girlfriend, pulling her on my lap.
"Hmm I'm not hungry." She replies , not putting all of her weight on my lap. I wrap my arms around Lauren, pulling her closer.
"You haven't eaten today?" I say, sounding more like a question.
"Because I'm not fucking hungry!" Lauren huffs moving off my lap and walking upstairs.
Well damn someone got out on the wrong side of the bed today. I think rolling my eyes at my girlfriends sudden mood-swing. Period ? Nah that was last week.
I sigh standing up from my comfortable position.
"What's up with Lo?" Normani asks as she walks into the room.
Not even bothering to reply I storm out of the room, a concerned and pissed expression on my face. As I make my way upstairs I hear Lauren's uncontrollable sobs coming from our room, the sound shatters my heart- instantly stoping all my anger. I quietly open the door and rush over to the bed, needing to protect my hurting girlfriend. My arms wrap around her waist and she instantly settles into my hold.
"Don't ask Y/N. I c can't tell you." The 'answer' is already given to the question roaming my mind.
"Bullshit." I say gently. "You can always talk to me, we're here for each other."
"No no I can't don't make me tell you, please no." Her body shakes as the words leave her mouth, Lauren tries to leave my hold as she sobs viciously.
"Let me go."
"No Lauren, what's going on?" I maintain my hold on her, pulling the beautiful girl closer and closer to me.
"Nothing." Is all she grumbles back, barely setting in my hold.
"Is someone hurting you?"
"No."
"Have you fell out with one of the girls?"
"No."
"What is it. Baby please tell me, I don't like seeing you like this. I want to make you feel better, I want to help you." I plead looking into her dark emerald eyes.
"You can't help me. No one can help me because I'm fucking fine Y/N. Fine. Just leave me alone." She snaps, pushing me away from her.
Sighing in defeat I stand up and begin to leave, walking towards the door -
"D don't leave me p please. I'm s sorry." Lauren jumps up, wrapping her arms around my waist pulling me back.
I sigh , again, and wrap my arms back around her, again. "Why are you sorry?"
"Because look at me Y/N. I'm not good enough, for you or for fifth-"
"Lauren Michelle Jauregui. Don't you dare finish that sentence, don't lie to yourself like that baby." I interrupt, running my fingers trough her dark locks in attempt to calm her down.
"I'm not lying." She almost whispers.
I pull away from our hug and hold out my hand signalling for her to take it. Looking at me with that adorable, sad confused expression on her face, she does so.
We stand in front of the wardrobe mirror as I wrap my arms around her waist.
"What are you-"
"Shh let me try something." I whisper kissing along her jawline. Now standing in front of her.
"Okay."
"Honestly I'm afraid to know what you think of yourself so, I'm going to tell you what I think." I leave a trail of kisses down her neck to her shoulder. "I love your arms, they make me feel safe, whenever I'm in them it's like a barrier of protection to the outside world."
I move down kissing her tummy through her shirt. " I love your little stomach, I love how your abs feel against my skin when we're cuddling, I love how when you're not feeling well your stomach bloats and how you always make me rub and kiss it until you feel better."
My hands roam further down, tracing light circles on her curvy figure and hips. " I love your hips and the way you always sway them when you're trying to tease me."
I squat down to leave a trail of gentle pecks on her thighs. "I love your thighs and how they're perfectly thick and strong and damn girl these legs know how to dance."
I stand back up, looking at her with nothing but love. "I love your beautiful face; your enticing eyes which I never fail to get lost in every time I look into them, I love your smile and how in a room full of smiles yours is the only one that catches my attention, I love the way you furrow your eyes together when your confused and how the way your nose scrunches up when you yawn or melodically giggle. I love your badass and I don't give a fuck personality yet I love what's behind that, the big hearted caring, protective, cuddly baby I fell in love with. I love you for you Lauren, you're perfect to me inside and out. Nothing's going to change that ever. I love you so much Lauren."
Finishing my rant I wipe the tears that have fell from her eyes and lean in, connecting our lips with so much passion. Pulling away before anything gets too heated.
"If you ever feel like shit about your body. Come to me straight away, don't starve your self baby girl." I smile leaning in for another peck, as I pull away her arms wrap around my waist pulling me in for a tight hug.
"Thank you so much Y/N. I love you."
"I love you too... Now how does meat feast pizza sound?"
"That sounds good I'm actually really fucking hungry." She giggles sadly.
"Cmon baby lets go and order it."
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