Life's hard

Bye

I fell asleep because my head was thriving and my heart was racing. I woke up the next morning to a loud scream when I turned over it was my sister she feel to her knees and grabbed the carpet as she cried and cried I tried to get answers but nothing caught her attention I got down in the floor with her but she pushed me away my mom ran up and got her I ran to my bathroom for the conform of the blade slicing my wrists open and my scars to never heel the relive of emotional pain. Walked out of my bed room and slammed my dead against my head bored of the bed I bruised my head but it didn't hurt I walked downstairs to talk to my sister but she ran outta the house so I decided tonight was the night I take my last breath I waited till midnight everyone was asleep I took my chair and my rope hung it around my ceiling fan and right as I was about to jump my mom walked in with tears stretching down her face I screamed get out and I wrote a note to give to her
I'm sorry how selfish of me I thought I was worthless but not to you, you care don't you? I walked downstairs and left it by her coffe cup and left I went to the store then to get lunch and then I saw my bestfriend Hayes my sister told him everything and I just started to smile he was confused and I said if only u looked closer into my eyes u would see the pain I'm trying to hide the things that I think inside. For my smile is my only cover for my pain.