I laid in bed, staring at the ceiling, but seeing nothing in the complete darkness. My body ached and it felt like a layer of filth coated my skin. Eden laid next to me; he'd fallen asleep hours ago. All I could think about was his voice and he he demanded "you deserve this." He was right. I did. I didn't deserve him. Sure, he had his flaws, but at least he was faithful. I could never keep that promise to him. Throughout the three years we'd been dating, I'd cheated on him more than a few times. It wasn't that I wasn't satisfied with him, because I was. I just felt like I had the right to do what I wanted at the time. But looking back, all I wanted was to take it back. Those men were never worth it.
Disgusted with myself, I got up out of bed, putting my robe on. I walked to the bathroom to wash my face. I leaned onto the counter, sighing, as I looked in the mirror. My makeup was completely messed up, a mixture of dried tears and misplaced makeup sat on my cheeks. My hair wasn't much better off. It was knotted and messy.
Inhaling deeply, I turned on the foccet and started my nightly routine. After I washed my face and brushed my teeth, I combed through my hair, untangling each individual strand. I knew that I should have went to bed, but it's not like I would have slept anyway, so I walk out of our room and head downstairs.
I sat down on the couch and picked my purse up from the glass coffee table. I got my phone out, seeing I have 2 new massages. One was from Chuck and the other from an unsaved number. Chuck's read: Hey I gave ur number to Marina I didn't think you would mind:P I laughed lightly at her immaturity. The one from the unsaved number was an address. I saved the unknown number as Marina, but didn't text back considering it was 3:44AM and she was probably asleep. I'd thank her in the morning.
There wasn't much to do in the middle of the night; my bordem let my mind free to wandered. I thought of the way Eden treated me. From the outside, I could see how someone would think that I'm a victim, but both of us know that we aren't good for each other. I hurt him just as much as he hurts me, if not more, I just does a better job at hiding it.
For about an hour I just sat on the couch, I'm the same spot I had hours ago, but my thoughts were disrupted by my phone buzzing. It was Marina.
M: so you leave me on read?
I giggled. She was so sassy.
L: I didn't want to wake you up. I was trying to be nice
M: how sweet<333
L: Why are you even away at 5: 30 in the morning?
M: I couldn't sleep. What about you?
L: Neither could I
M: we're meant to be
L: So much chemistry
M: I'm looking forward to seeing you again
M: it will be lots of fun
L: Yeah me too:)
M: how are you doing?
L: I'm pretty good. How are you?
M: I'm kind of tired but good. What are you up to?
L: Nothing much just wasting time
L: What about you?
M: drinking some coffee, petting my cat, the usual
I smiled. She was cute.
L: Yes cats are the best! I want one so bad:(
M: you should get one there's lots of homeless cats out there it's a waste of you not to
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Don't be Ashamed (A Larina Fanfiction)
FanfictionLana thinks that she is satisfied with her boyfriend. He loves her and gives her everting she asks for. But this all changes when Lana finds herself craving something else-- someone else. ~inappropriate and triggering content may occur so please...