A Jackass Life. (A Bam Margera Love story)

Celebration of sort

As usual, the guys had wanted to go to the bar and have there way of celebrating. I was correct for maybe the 1000 time since I had met them.

I wasn't complaining by any means and I was thankfully invited by Knoxville and Steve-o to go.
Bam would look at me every now and then as I sat at the bar and the guys were scattered around the whole place. Bam sat with pontius; But whatever. It surprisingly hadn't bothered me as much as I had possibly thought it would have and although It had been a week since I talked to Jared because he was busy filming and I knew he was busy. Very busy, and I understood completely.

Me and him had been getting very close lately. We were talking a lot more, and seemed to be getting along pretty well by now.

I don't know how Bam was doing. I had seen him a coupe times, but nothing along the lines of anything to personal. I hadn't talked to him either.

I still had no clue why it all played out the way it did. It could have absolutly been avoided. I mean, I get that he cheated, but something about it just doesn't really, idk... Make since I guess. Or is that not the word? I have no clue.....
All of it could have still been avoided, but then again,  I wouldn't have met Jared if neither Ban or I had spoke up. And Jared was... Unraveling.

Jared was sweet, caring, and very inteligent.
He made me laugh even when I didn't want to.
It was honestly incredible.

But, my mind still seemed to always wander back to Bam.

He was all of the same as Jared.
But yet again, so different at the same time.

Why am I thinking of Bam?!
I didn't need to be and I knew that. But... Idk.
What am I doing?
I just got out of a relationship with Bam.
What was I thinking? What was I doing?

What was I going to do?
That's the real question I should be asking.

He cheated on me with someone who I had somewhat looked up to. Yeah, I was Jelous. I was furious. Hell, I was even disappointed.
But never the less, he had cheated on me. For weeks at that.
Why the fuck couldn't I just be over it all already?!? Fuck this.

I sighed heavily, and heard my phone ring.
"Hello?" I answered without even looking at the caller ID.

"Hey Hun. How's it going? You sound upset" Jared said on the other line.
I smiled slyly.
"Everything's okay. I'm just tired" I lied and started sipping on my drink, trying to hear over the loud thuds and vibrations from the ever growing sound of music at the bar and all the chatter from the sorrowful people all around me.
I shrugged unintentionally.

"Hello?" Jared said on the other end, and I came back to reality.
"Hey. Hey yeah I'm here. Sorry I zoned out for a second there" I chuckled.
"It's alright. I just wanted to check in is all. Ive had a long day too. I'll call you tomorrow?" He questioned and I nodded my head.
Momentarily realizing that he couldn't see me do so.
"Yes. That's fine" I smiled.

"Goodnight" I heard him smile from the tone of his voice. And calming one at that.
The line went dead and I carried on.
Taking sip after sip after sip of my many drinks after another.

Still feeling my head turn and twist in the more confused minded way instead of alcoholic way.
I wasn't drunk by any means. At most maybe a bit buzzed in all honestly.

But, it was the place I needed to be at. Not to much and none to less.
I was in a calmed, relaxing state and I needed to enjoy it while it lasted.

After all, wasn't this supposed to be a celebration of some sort?