“Bea, bestfriend mo oh”
“Anong bestfriend?! Di ko yan bestfriend. Remember?”
“Oh oo nga pala. She dumped you 😂”
“What the! Anong dumped ka diyan. I didn't even courted her noh.”
“Pero seryoso, you guys really need to talk. It's been what more than a month since i saw you guys talking.”
“You know what Ju, stop. You know that walang pupuntahan tong pinag uusapan natin. You know how much i tried di ba?”
Yes I've tried. I've tried so hard and yet i got nothing in return. But what can i do? Kaslanan ko naman eh. I shouldn't have done that. Nawalan tuloy ako ng bestfriend.
Yes we were once bestfriend. Not until that day. That fucking day when i made a wrong choice.
Flashback:
This is it. I think I'm ready. But not until I saw her.
“Bei laway mo. Ew” Jia said while wiping my chin na parang tanga. Masasapak ko to eh.
“Shut up Ju!” I said na aakmang sapakin siya. Ang kulit kasi eh haha
“Hey easy! Maddie oh!” Shit Jia. Why do you have to call her. OMG!
I pinched Jia’s side. And nakita ko namang napangiwi siya sa sakin. Yan dapat sa'yo.
“Ano yon Jia? Bei?” Maddie
“A-ah nako Maddie wala to. Jia’s just being papansin here.” i quickly said and hinila ko si Jia papunta sa gilid.
“The fuck Ju! Ayan! Nawalan na ko ng lakas ng loob makipag usap sakaniya later. Nahihiya na ko.”
“Like srsly?! Beadel is dat u? Asan na ang the moves mo?”
“You know naman na when it comes to Mads hindi ko kaya mag damoves. It's like natatameme ako when she's here. Yes she's my bestfriend pero magkaiba yon.”
“Alam mo if you won't make a move now walang mangyayari. Do you want to be her bestfriend lang? If yes then that would be fine. Do nothing now them regret later.” Ayan nagseryoso na siya. And i like it when she's like this. Natatauhan ako.
Tinignan ko si Maddie na nakikipagharutan with my other team mates. She's so damn pretty. My bestfriend is so gorgeous. Hindi ko masisisi ang sarili ko why I fell for her.
Kaya ko ba? Can I already confess my feeling to her? I know we've been friends for a year na. And not just friends ha. We're bestfriends kaya we know a lot of each other. Pero kaya niya kaya akong tanggapin?
I was out of my thoughts when someone snaps a finger in front of me. And when I saw who it was di ako nagdalawang isip na batukan siya. Panira ng moment.
“Ouch! Para san yon?! Kaya lang naman ako nag ganon kasi kanina pa ako nagsasalita and you were spacing out” sabi niya while rubbing her head na binatukan ko 😂 cute
“What were you saying ba? Is it important that you're ruining my moment? 😒 i said with kunwaring irritated voice.
“Aba kung ok lang naman sa'yo. I told Maddie na kakausapin mo siya mamaya. And she said yes. 😀”
“What?! Bakit di mo muna ako kinausap! Ugh!” i said while panicking. Hindi pa ako ready noh. I threw Jia a death glare. Humanda ka sakin.
“Maddie! Tawag ka na ni Bei!” Shit ka Jia. Ugh!
Bigla namang lumapit si Maddie samin.
“Yes Bei?” Maddie with her innocent look. Oh how can i resist those eyes. Her smile. It's like I'm looking at an angel.
“Hey Bea, ok ka lang?” may masakit ba sayo?”
“A-ah Mads wala. Gusto lang talaga kitang kausapin. May gusto akong sabihin sa'yo. Can we talk privately?”
“Sure, saan ba?”
“Sa car ko na lang. Let's go?”
The we walked to my car. Pinagbuksan ko siya ng pinto like what i always do. Nagpasalamat naman siya then tumango na lang ako.
“So? Ano pag uusapan natin? Nako Bea siguraduhin mong importante yan ha. Nagugutom na pa man din ako.”
Shit pano ko ba to sisimulan. It's like my tongue’s tied and no words is coming out of my mouth. Ugh! Naffrustrate na ako. She's just looking at me and I'm just looking at her. And feeling ko we will be kissing soon. De joke lang! Seryoso na Bea ugh! So here goes nothing.
“Ugh Mads. I know na alam mong mahal kita right? And I'm very thankful na you came into my life and became my bestfriend. Sobrang saya ko since that day. You never failed to make me smile Mads.”
“Bei ako din. I'm super happy and thankfull na we became bestfriends. Hindi ko makakalimutan yon. You're like a sister to me.”
“Mads, i know you're not into girls. And i don't know what will happen after this moment. Pero hindi ko na kayang itago. Matagal ko ng pinipigilan pero i can't na. I like you Mads. No scratch that. I love you. More than bestfriends. I fell in love with you.”
“Bei”
“Mads, pwede mo ba akong bigyan ng chance to show you how much i love you? Can i stop being your bestfriend and be your suitor instead?”
Hindi ko na alam pero lahat lumabas na sa bibig ko ng dirediretso. Please Mads.
“Bea, hindi ko alam. Hindi magsink in sakin tong mga nangyayari. Bestfriend kita. Parang kapatid na kita. And i can't see myself bein in a relationship with a girl. You know that right?”
“Yes i know. Pero can't you at least give it a try?”
“No Bei. I can't. I can't risj something na alam kong hindi ko kayang panindigan. I don't like you as that. Hindi ko kaya Bea.” she said at akmang bubuksan ang pinto ng car ko. Pero i locked it agad.
“Bea please let me out.”
“No Mads. Not until we finish talking”
“Ano pa bang paguusapan natin? Ano bang gusto mong marinig?! We can't be Bea. Mahirap bang intindihin yon!?” I can see she's mad. Nasasaktan ako.
“Mads plea..”
“No Bea. I need to say this. Bakit ka nagkaganyan? Mag bestfriend tayo. Bakit nagkaganito?! Alam mong ayaw ko ng ganito di ba? Sinabi ko sayo yon Bei. Pero why are you doing this?”
“Hindi ko napigilan Mads. I'm so..” she cut me again
“Sorry? No bea. Ginusto mo to kasi kung pinigilan mo hindi ka magkakaganyan. Please Bea. Let me go!”
“Mads.”
“Fine. Kung hindi pa sapat mga sinabi ko sa'yo eto pa. Please stay away from me muna. Hindi ko alam kung ano pang maipapakita at maipapakitungo ko sayo ngayon. Hindi ko alam kung kaya pa kitang pagkatiwalaan Bea. Stay away from me. Please.”
Then i let her go
End of flashback
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