Unbearable (Completed)

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March 8, 2007

Gloria

He raped her. He raped her. He raped her. All this time she thought it was somebody she wouldn't know and it was somebody she was very familiar with.

Her ex-husband had done so many things wrong. This wasn't the man she loved all those years ago. This was a fraud. She couldn't love someone as evil as him so she thought.

She always said to herself that she would never question God but somehow in this moment she found herself doing just that.

She didn't know what to think. She didn't know how to feel. So many emotions filled her all at once. Hate being put at the front of her mind. She hated Michael Carter. How could she be so stupid. Why was she always being the fool.

Laying down in her bed she did what she hadn't been able to do in years. She cried releasing so much hurt in the past years that had been placed upon her. Holding on tight to her pillow she realized she had nothing else to live for.

The answers she needed had been given to her. The hurt that she had endured was more necessary than she understood.

She had done more than she'd ever known to help others now it was her turn. She was tired of this life and she just couldn't take it anymore.

Watching the sunrise she felt the time approaching her. She pulled out her special box and waited. She made her calls to the investigators knowing that things would be okay.

She had been up all night and her eyes were now growing tired.

She quickly said a prayer that she normally would say in formality but this time she meant it, every bit of it.

"Now I lay me down to sleep. I pray the Lord my soul to keep. If I should die before I wake, I pray to God my soul to take. Amen"

She cried a little more until she finally excepted her fate.

"I'm ready."she said before entering a state of rest.
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Beyoncé

Beyoncé was just about to chow down on her steak and shrimp when she started to feel sick.

"Are you okay." Kelly asked as she watched her sister drop her silverware and hold her stomach.

Because they chose a table outside she didn't need fresh air but she felt as if the air was making her sick.

"Uh I don't know I think it's just the air." She said feeling sweat forming on her forehead.

"You sure?" Kelly asked scrunching up her face.

"Yeah I just need some water." Kelly nodded her head and waved the waitress over to them and place and order for water in.

"Bey, I- are you okay?" Beyoncé had to think about that for a moment was she really okay?

"No, but I'm going to be." She answered truthfully. After she hired Nicki she decided to contact a therapist. She wanted to be happy again and whether they believed her or not last night was scary as hell but it was something she need to do.

Honestly, she knew about her fathers involvement. She remembered listening to him and Carter arguing days after the incident in her fathers office. She knew it was all because they wanted her to go to college and Shawn to join the company.

Because she learned she couldn't trust her father, she had turned on her mother too.

"Kelly, I need to know why weren't you there for me when I got in the car accident?"